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Wednesday, April 28, 2010

OKAESS....in NANA's class nw and waiting for her to do RJ before going to cwp soo i ll update tiz blog to pass the time. haha. well school has started again. 2nd year now. *aiseii mann...kakak2 sei* hahaha. the modules and facies are fun funn! maths aint in my module animore and i dun have to retake it coz my overall results is a C so tiz means HEAVEN BEBEH! ahhahaha
new classmates are EFFING FUNN! gereks people in my class = MEGA KECOHNESS. me likey. hahaha.
so anwaes, had anatomy module tday and the faci damn gerek. instead of presenting PPT and doing the old same cycle everyday, we played games and the whole class were damn happy. super slack and ended class early tooh. YAYY!! I LOVE YOU KAREN! hahaha.
had a major selenge mmt just now. went out to do some stuffs then otw back to class, dengan penoh semangat, i went to w3 when my class is at w5. ahhaha! and i only realised its the wrng class wen i opened the class door and realise tt the faci was a guy. my faci is a gal! hahahaha. PAISEH SIAA. ahhaha. nad osoo selenge go foloow blindly. LOL.
Went out with NANA & Rahmat to Fareast yesterdayy. NAD cudnt come along coz she gt tiz DOAL talk. we went strght after skul and 1st thg we did was makan. ahahha. aft tt went to get NANA's perfume and smthg else. *kening* walked arnd awhile then after we all went home.
GODD!! my mood to shop really come at a wrng time siaa. ahhaha! i gt no $ and the mood to shop is building up! i wana get pumps and a bag n my tudong n handsox and an iTouch n many2 shrts and many more laaa! yes i wana get a new dress tooh. yes a dress. i knw wat u tinking bt keep ur thots to urself kays. =S
so highlite of last week? it was definitely the netball moments. coaching and tornament on the 24th of april=)
eventho ther were some stressfull mmts, and at some point of time i feel like gving up on evrythg. im just glad i din. playing my first love in the rain helped me to relax alot toohh. thx to all those tt kept my hopes high=) i stand by to what i sed b4. playing with BODEX is and frever will be the ones tt i am olwaes looking 4ward tooh and enjoii so the very much. SO LETS MAKE TIZ WERK PEOPLE!!

ok so the mass friendly was between 5 teams. which were Irsyad, AFY, Ghufran, MarslingCSC & KNIGHTINGALES=))
we won 2 and lost 2 but it aint that bad. we din train at all for tiz so its considered ok ah. plus we din have our full strength so i ll gv the ego pain a pass. i really look up to KNIGHTINGALES siaa. they are like...WOAAHHH!! cnt put it in werds. hahaha. watever it is, defeating them is my target and i am soo gona werk my butts off fr it. =))

PEACE

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Thursday, April 22, 2010

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im losing evrythg i thot i id have frever. history repeating again. wat shud i do? run away? or fight? im tired of gg thru it again n again. is it me? is it nt me? y isit happening? wher did i go wrng? why?? someone gv me the ans. im tired. the sense of serenity aint aniwher near me. suicide sounds good. bt it aint the way. its gona get me to deeper shit. mayb im rite. i shud walk the earth alone. tt way i wun hurt anione aniwher. tt way they wud b happier. evrythg sux. my life sux. i suck.

its haunting me. evry breath i take. evry step i take. evry single beat of my heart. it wun leave me. FCUK U FR MAKING ME HU I AM NW. FCUK U FR MAKING MY LIFE INSECURE. FCUK U FR MAKING ME HAVE TO LIVE EVRYDAY IN GUILT AND FEAR. FCUK U.
u made me hu i am nw. u happy? bt u dun knw tt dun u. ur off wit ur perfect life. i wana thank you fr making me tiz way. thk u soo much. u gt all the credit to tiz.

DEAR LORD, if u hear me. tell me wat i do wrng? tell me y do i stay up crying in most nites. tell me y aint i at peace. y is evryone arnd me hurtin? y r u gving me gd frens when u knw imma hurt them? y do u bless me a gd family wen u knw imma hurt them n brg shame? y do u gv me such an easy life wit no financial probs n stuff wen u knw imma take advantage of it? y do u bless me healthy wen u know imma spoil myself? y do u gv me such a gd life knwing imma just do bad thgs repeatedly. whyy. tell me why. TELL ME WHY

how many times must i go thru tiz to redeem myself? is this a test? process of redemption? what?? u gv me good frens, then u take them away. u later gv me the best. nw u throw me a challenge. tell me what to do. im tired trying to figure out all my life. i affect evryone arnd me. those closest affected the most. broken frenshps. selfishness. hurt. if im meant to cause soo much pain then take me away. make their lives better. they dserve the best n i just aint it. i dun dserve my family. my friends. my life. all too perfect. take me away. make them happy.

SERENITY ONLY COMES WHEN DEATH CALLS MY NAME

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Tuesday, April 20, 2010

20April marks the first day 2 strangers met. E37A was where it all began and it was a brand new journey for us. we began as 3, then 4. bt sadly, it deteriorated to 2.
even so, u never left my side. u are truly a loyal and trusting friend and i thank ALLAH evryday for letting me have u in my life.

i still rmmbr wen we went out n stuff. wen i told u my secrets. wen evrythg seems lost then it was bright again. wen we make stupid rules and jokes. it was funn. haha.
u were ther fr me thru thick n thin. we laughed like nobody bizness at stuff others dun understand. we gossiped abt many thgs and acted like idiots along the way. through hard times, u were ther. u lend me ur shoulder and advices i cud never 4get. u wud nvr see me as a bestfren coz its ur policy, i understand. and i dun mind=) bt nevertheless, u were more then a friend to me. to me ur like a sister. a sister i din ask fr bt was blessed wit one afterall.

i know ther have been rocky roads fr us. some i mite nt knw of. bt u shud knw tt u have been ntg bt a great fren to me and tt i appreaciate u evryday. if i have hurt u in any way i mite nt know of, do 4gv me dear friend. i am only human afterall. bt i knw tts no excuse and i soo am hoping tt ud 4gv me. i know time has been an issue fr us and that i have been a suckish fren. i admit i was wrng and that i nd to grow up. selfish maybe? or mayb i just suck.

whatever it is i wana thank you for being a part of my life. though thers a saying stating that ntg lasts 4ever, i hope we would. i apologise fr all the hurts and problems ive caused towards u. i seek 4gvness frm u sincerely frm deep dwn. and i want u to know that i HEARTS u to the max and that thers noone in the world that cn ever replace u in my life.

HAPPY 1Year FRIEND-IVERSARY NUR AAINAA NADIAH BTE JA'AFAR.
THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHG, DEAREST FRIEND=)

XOXO,
- Hanisah

PEACE

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Monday, April 19, 2010

Every time you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost and
That you're so alone
All you see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can’t see which way to go
Don’t despair n' never loose hope
Cos' Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah

Insha Allah you’ll find your way

Insha Allah

Every time you can make one more mistake
You feel you can’t repent
And that it's why too late
You’re so confused,
Wrong decisions you have made
Hunt your mind and your heart is full of shame
Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cos' Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah

Insha Allah you’ll find your way

Insha Allah

Insha Allah you’ll find your way
Turn to Allah
He’s never far away
Put your trust in Him Raise your hands and pray Oh
Ya Allah
Guide my steps don’t let me go astray
You’re the only one that showed me the way,
Showed me the way

Insha Allah

Insha Allah we’ll find our way

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Saturday, April 17, 2010

I WANT THESE SHOES CAN??!

SOOO NICE!!

PEACE

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Sunday, April 11, 2010

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Friday, April 2, 2010

ok people this is gona b a looooooong post. so bear wit me ok. hahaha.
akteli v the malas wana blog ahh but like got no other thg to do so here goes....

ok last 2 weeks, on the 23rd of march 2010, was the Official CEP programme at Marina Barrage. its the YOG thgy ahh. i think i described it correctly. the event only starts at 2.30pm but we had to go ther early in the morn as we had to rehearse evrythg again. plus there we 3 new ppl joining us and Grace isnt wit us animore=(
so made our way ther and reached the barrage at 10am. so blablabla....blabla...and the day ended at 7 like that. if i rmmbr correctly ah. haha. the event wasnt as tiring as the SFC we had in december. but nevertheless it drained us as its been quite some time since then. had some major bad comments but some major good ones tooh. its ok we ll do better in august. teehee.

soo on wed and fri in that week was the norm routine. wich was netball wit my gerls. AFY training was cncled as it was a no show. yes no show. dunno wat to say oledi la. tired.

on thurs went to ICA in the morn to make my adk's I/C. aiseyy da bsaww adk aku. haha. i stil rmmbr my first I/C. sume cm step da kakak2 jek. hahaha. NAD accompanied me n my sis tt day, *thx nad* haha. and after sending my adk go skul, we had lunch wit NANA at her werk place then went and slacked at NAD's house. i feel major bad smtimes coz i owaes like tumpang NAD's or NANA's house. cm owang tkd uma g2. haiz. sorry to trouble u gals many2 babes.

so on the 27th had the part 2 of teh leadershp course and HAWA cudnt go wimme. =( but i gt my cert in the end and am damn happy i learned smthg new. haha. finished early again and went to merayap at vivo. when i gt bored and tired of walking, went to granny's place and chilled.

Now it brgs us to this week. hahaa. had FOP training in RP on mon and tues and i had alot of fun. met the people frm the camp and we had to learn the mass dance and play games and such. but it was fun and was damn shagged after that.

My gerls had friendly's wit Siglap Sec on wed. and i do not know wats the exact score but we scored 3 in the first game and 6 in the 2nd. thats a total of 9 points! eventho we lost, i am very very proud of them as they improved alot since the last time and we will try to brg it back next time.

1/4/10. 1st april. APRILS FOOL. hahaha. went to NANA's place at 12plus2 after goin ICA to collect my adk's I/C and the solo shopping. hahaha. yes i went to the supermarket alone. BAEK AHH NISA!! and i gt all the ingredients needed correct okaee. haha. ok i shall stp my puji dri.
i bought these ingredients as NANA is gona bake a delicious treat. hehe. i dunno wat its koled but its chocomarshylemolishious! hahaha. damn nice i tell u. wen i ate it, i went strght to cloud 9. hahaha. THANK YOU AAINAA!! hehe.

so had lunch at her place then terdozed off awhile. woke up wit NANA poking me arnd at my neck area. JUST LIKE MY FATHER LA YOUU. had to wake up ahh coz had to go for the SFC appreaciation dinner at sports school. so heres the thg, wen i woke up, nga selenge ofcoz, i read a msg frm NAD. she say she may nt b able to go fr the dinner coz of smthg and tt she wud update me. somethg abt a DISLOCATED SHOULDER. i punye selenge g percaye. lupe plak its 1st april. so it lasted til in the bus wen me and NANA were otw to sports skul. it hit me that tday was 1st april and that NAD sounded way healthy on the phone wen i koled her b4 we left NANA's place. and NANA was acting super funny wen we alighted the bus. so i kept my guard up. hahaha. tts wen i heard a familiar sound, NAD's necklace. so i stopped and moved back. HAHH!! just as i thot i was pranked -___-"hahaha. but i was happy that both my dearest frens are arnd wimme tt day.
the dinner was fun tooh. Marina, Natasha, Chris, Kevin, Raudhah and Pradeep sat wit us in one table and it was effing fun! we LOL-ed and Boogied and played games like nobody's business. haha. then ther were the maskotts. OMG they are sooo CUTE!! soo gona kidnap them one day. hahaha. so after the dinner ended, we walked frm the school to i dunno wher ahh. but parted frm NAD at the bustop then me and NANA took a bus too and went to her place. my mom fetched me ther and it was a looong way home aft that.

today? well i shall not story now ahh. very lazy ahh. hahaha. will update soon!

PEACE

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