hunneySTAR's

2011-06-13T13:45:00.002+08:00

All my life
i've waited for the right
moment to let you know
i dont wanna let you go oh
now i realize
there's just no perfect time
to confess how i feel
this much i know is real
so i refuse to
waste one more second without you
knowing my heart

chorus:

baby cause i dont
need anything else but your love
nothing but you means a thing to me
i'm incomplete
when you're not there
holding me touching me elsewhere
how long the risk could just dissapear
and i will not even care
as long as you're there
take this word
dont let them go unheard
this is me reaching out

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/as-long-as-youre-there-lyrics-glee.html ]

i hope you can hear me now
this pain in my heart stands stay
taking is yours to break
having to try and lose
then keep this love from you
so i refuse to
waste one more second
without you
knowing my heart

(repeat chorus)

bridge:
each day
and i
that i
kept it a secret
and it killed me
it's time
to share what i feel inside

2011-01-30T15:03:00.002+08:00

There's a song that's inside of my soul
Its the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I will wake in the end when it calls
But you sing to me over and over and over again

Chorus:
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

I give you my destiny
I'm giving you all of me
I want your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs
I'm giving you all

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours i pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

tinkin abt you

2010-12-26T11:14:00.004+08:00

OMG. i find myself getting lazier and lazier to blog. urghh. its gona be dead soon and i dun want that. so here goes. ahhaha.

T has been on a trip to muar. still waiting for her to come back. hehe. hope she is having loads of fun. i miss her crazy and soolengeness. lols. she promised to write me an essay wen she get back on wat happened. XD minimum 1000 words taw k makcik. ahhahah.

so while T was away having fun, i am at home. doing chores -_____-'' yes my family decided not to take another maid after my last one went home. so we have been doing all the chores for awhile now and i m getting the hang of it myself. bt stil kinda wish ther was a maid tho. lol. perangai pemalas i know. XD

so it has been 1 week of our 2 week hols now. so not looking forward to go to skul. haiz. i am reali in no mood to go to skl yet. hols is wher i gt to relax. not go skul and do chores and stuff. haiz...IIP meetings..UT talks...bla bla...NOOWAYYY!! dotzz...but ohwells..tts life ryt? u dun alwaes get wat u want. but i cnt deny that the first week of our hols was AWESOME. for 4 SUPER AWESOME days i had a reali great time=D bt i guess that will be the only great time imma get during these hols. cnt wait for tuesday tho, finally gona meet T and bby=) after having 4 days stuck at home...fats accumalate u knw? XD time to do some exercises bebeh =D

PEACE

UPDATE TIME BEBEH

2010-11-21T20:34:00.004+08:00

SHOPPING MADNESS!!!
went shopping with my mom, sis and maid just now. maid is going home on th 6th and so we went shopping so that she can spend a few to brg home. hee.
so as we all know, or just me and my family and T, i only shop once a year. and when that time comes, i go CRAZY!! i bought so many things just now. like OMG. ahhaha.
bought T s suprise too. u ll find out tmr oni T, dun b so excited and bug me to tell u wat it is k. XD

so i bought new jeans, a shirt, and a brand new shoe!! ahhaha.
ADIDAS KAU! liek OMG. soo nice!!
THX MOMMY!!!
i finally have a new shoe and its GREEN TOO!!! =DD
bought a few other thgs i shall not mention here coz then it ll ruin the suprise for T *winkwink*
and that marks the part 1 shopping spree. =D
my maid, mom and sis bought stuff too. it was a grls day out mann.
like criusly grls day out. we spend like nobody's business. HAHHAA.
there will be a part 2 nxt wk. on sunday. we ll be going to another place to shop. going Jusco. went Angsana just now. yes its msia ppl. but heyy...ITS CHEAP!! and im on a shopping mode. so i dun gv a damn. i just wna shop. ahahha!

T's at granny's house now. she went to a wedding ceremony just now. hope shes doing ok. i miss her alot=( cnt wait fr tmr. so gona have alot of fun with her. i olwaes have so much fun with her=) I m so glad to have met u dear friend=D <3

sch have been ok so far. not gd, not bad. thgs gtting v boring in sch nowdaes. need smthg to perk me up more. dotz. ahha. things are stil holding up without granny arnd. i miss her. alot. stil cnt believe that she is gone bt...we have to move on ryt? hmm...saturdays are not the same without her arnd tho. i miss her presence so much. at times, i just cnt help bt to reminisce.
i hope she knws i love her alot b4 she left. i hope she knws that when she left us, alot of good blessings were left behind to the family.
i hope she is resting in peace. watching us as we carry on with life. till teh day we join her in the world after.

PEACE

2010-11-08T21:20:00.006+08:00

HAPPY 10th MONTH FRENDIVASARY TOMATO! =D
i din expect today would turn up so differently. i planned for a movie and smal gift but thgs got the better of me when i fell sick.
in teh end, you took care of me and we spend time at the doctor and your house, sleeping. dotz. ahhaha. aniwaes. thk u for the great day today dear.
it has been 10 months since we have been friends and i cherish u everyday.
not once have i regret knowing you and i hope you know that you are a fine, special young lady who has alot of potential and heart.
ME LOVES YOU SO MUCH DEAR FRIEND!!

will make it up to you when i am better kays. love u lots.
do take care and hydrate for that ulcer in your throat tho. and dun even think of not doing it coz i ll know. ahhaaha.
tc sweets=)

PEACE

Mariah Carey - Bye Bye

2010-11-03T16:39:00.000+08:00

Why...

2010-11-03T14:41:00.003+08:00

02112010

I remember you chasing me around at home when i was little. with a cane in your hand asking me to bathe. you would scream at me and tell me to do my homework, and eat. and wake me up in the morning. send me down to my transport to bring me to preschool. the estate was my playground. you calling me from the window when my cuzzins and me were playing at the playground from dawn to dusk. asking me to perform my prayers whenever i forget. and as i grow up, i moved out. we meet every saturdays only. even so..i loved going there every sat.

i remember you asking me if i am coming the week after. i remember u asking me to stay over at your house and keep you company. i remember you making the jelly just for me cause you know i only like yours. i remember you making conversation with me the few times i slept over at your house. i remember you sitting in the room with me the morning before i leave for school. your smile. the way you shower me with your love and care all these years. no matter the distance. no matter who or what am i. you loved me nevertheless.

i still cant believe you have left us once and for all. i am still in shock. why did you leave so early? why did you leave so suddenly? why did you leave without saying goodbye? you were smiling and laughing with us last saturday. you went out with our aunts and uncles last sun. i kissed your forehead and cheeks before i left. you sat with me and kkfid in the kitchen when we are eating and you were fine. what happened? why did you go so soon. im not ready to say goodbye just yet. i still want you in my life. i regret not saying 'I Love You' to you everytime we meet. i regret not showing you how much i appreciate you. i regret not hugging you so tight and not letting go when i should. why must you go so soon...

it was very unexpected of you to leave us like this. i understand its your time. and that HE loves you so much that he takes you away from us to go to a better place. but seeing you..lifeless on the bed. kissing you for the last time. staying by your side the whole time. i miss you. so much. i cnt believe your gone. i want it all to be a prank. seeing you going in the grave. covered up by the soil. saying my last goodbye. i just cant let it go. im stil in disbelief. i hope its not too late to say this. I LOVE YOU.

DEAR ALLAH,
Ampunknlah dose2 nenekku. luasknlah kuburnya.
ringanknlah seksa kuburnya.
sejukkn la keadaan didalam kuburnya dan akhirat nnt.
beriknlah nenekku kesenangan untuk menjwp soalan2 yg akn ditanya
oleh malaikat mungkar and nangkir nnt.

AMEEN

SINGS.....

2010-10-24T17:55:00.001+08:00

Oh, her eyes, her eyes, make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair, falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful, and I tell her every day

Yeah, I know, I know, when I compliment her she won't believe me
And it's so, it's so, sad to think that she don't see what I see
But every time she asks me do I look ok, I say

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Because you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are

Her lips, her lips, I could kiss them all day if she let me
Her laugh, her laugh, she hates but I think it's so sexy
She's so beautiful, and I tell her every day

Oh, you know, you know, you know, I'd never ask you to change
If perfect's what you're searching for then just stay the same
So, don't even bother asking if you look ok
You know I'll say

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Because you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are
The way you are, the way you are

Girl you're amazing, just the way you are

Potato's Tomato =)

2010-10-24T01:26:00.002+08:00

PEACE =)

BORED.....

2010-10-14T12:42:00.005+08:00

ok its lunch time in school and i am bored to the max so i ll blog.

'2SoulsIn1Body'

T is at the sports complex now. she is having her sea based lesson and she is kayaking i tink. she din brg her lappy...so cnt msn or text even coz she in the water wat. ahhaha. so wil have to wait til aft sch mayb till i can hang wit her=(
so today's lesson is about nutrition. FOOOODIIIESS!!! hahaha. good thg abt the module is that it is about food. bad part is that i am getting very hungry and i am supposed to diet. -________-''
in class alone now, my friends all went to the DSES lecture and i din wana go so im just slacking in class.

had sports and exercise prescription on Tuesday and it was HELL ON EARTH! ok the module might b ok. bt the faci...LIKE OMG. i can kill myself sia. like really...every single small matter oso she can scold u. from how u pronounce to how u spell to how u sit?? dang..the whole class got super stressed and agitated with her. I WANT TO CHANGE FACI PLEASE!!!! =((
had the utmost WORST first day of school ever.

Wednesday was better tho. i loved it. it totally helped us to relax and stress free compared to the day before. it was IPA and i so love it =) plus i have 6ps and PPT and WS from T so it ll b super slack. ahhaha. get to spend time wit T tt day and we ate and went to woody crt. gawd we have so lil time these days=(
hopefully the nxt 8 weeks wud cut us some slck.
pssst....mr holiday? can u please come faster? i miss u so much=(

PEACE

I LOVE MY HOLIDAY!!

2010-10-11T23:00:00.005+08:00

Mr holiday is going away as of tomorrow and i am sooo NOT LOVING IT! can i go back in time and re-enjoy my holiday please?? 9 weeks of school before the next holiday and i am so the sadded. =( haizzz....but oh wells..life has to go on ryt?

so things that happened during my hols. nothing much but netball...slacking..NETBALL..merayaping..slacking...merayaping...hahhaha! but soo loving it ahh.

had hari raya about a month ago and it was kecoh ttm! we went outings and did all the normal routine by going my nenek house and all and collection was gereks! hehehe.

Open house at my place happened the week after that on a saturday and thats when family and friends came over to my johore house for hari raya and just catching up mmts. we had loads of fun and i was super tired coz it was a busy day and all. when everyone has went home, all of us (mom, dad, sister, bro and me) cleaned up and flopped down in the living room and slept ther. HAHHAHA!! epic.

the following week was GREAT. it was the last week of my hols and TOMATO came over and slcked and had fun wit me and my family for abt 4 days=D IT WAS THE BEST PART OF MY HOLS EVER!! we cycled and swam and do many other fun thgs and had a great and memorable time! i fed her well i guess since she sed i spoilt her and i am happy i did! hahaha. the downhill is that im gtting fat=( need to start dieting. ahhaha!

the saturday last week was spent at my new house at FABER HEIGHTS. its a Clementi. its one of the houses that my mom and dad bought for investment. they buy then either rent or sell according to the rate. so we just got the house and families and friends came over and hanged out tgt. the kids swam at the huge pool and the rest of us camwhored and played billiard and snooker. hahaha. it was mega kecoh and alot of foodies tooh. Tomato came along too as my mom invited her to join us since she going back on that day as well and we had loads of fun doing wat we did. THERS EVEN A JACUZZI AND SONAR AND STEAM ROOM! LIKE WOWW!! hahahaa. so gona go ther and crash it during hols mann.

so today i went out wit T for a muvie date at Cineleisure then went to merayap at ochard. =D since it was the last day before skul starts, we dcided to go out and enjoi. ahhaa. we watched Charlie st.cloud and it was FANTASTIC! i loved it. and then went to find shoe and ring and mayb some stuffs that T was looking for. bt most of the time we were eating. ahhahah! well i din get the stuffs coz i was surveying oni. bt wil get it one day=)

haizz...thx ehh mr school for ruining it. im stil in holiday mood and wil have to go sch tmr. haiz. so the malas. dotzz...so much to do so lil time. oh and in the new semester, i have 3 different classes every week! LIKE WTH??! dalah selenge bacinn...cnfrm sesat seii=(( bt new class is ok i guess. ntg will chg. me n T will stil b one lvl diff oni so no woriez=)

new semester. new challenges. new experiences. new knowledge. lets make the best of it ppl=) will update agian soon=)

PEACE

p.s: me HEARTS u many2 T=) thx alot for teh super fantastic fun day everyday=)

exams...exams...examms..RAYA!..exams...

2010-09-09T02:11:00.004+08:00

Have been wanting to update this blog since the past few days but like alwaes last min tk kesampaian. XD ohwells im updating nw so here goes..

have been going bc to school this week and yes its when all the others are having their one week hols. -____-'' we having exams this week and yes we cn blame it on YOG coz its the one that stalled our exams. dotzzz.. bt it aint so bad so its ok=) done with 3 UTs now and have 2 more to go. anatomy was suprisingly manageable and health and wellness was ok. tday was injury prevention and management and it was awesomee. ahhaha. manage to do it and finish 15 minits earlier too.
later will be human motor control and i hope it cuts me some slack coz tt is by far the hardest to score for UT and i really need the grade. need to buck up my GPA mann. last UT will be on monday and then will be coming in on tuesday to tman nad for her last paper=)
so today marks the last day of puasa and i am both happy and sad. happy coz we can eat anytime anywhere now and sad cause it seems like it pass by soo fastt this yr. i think because we have alot of things going on that it makes time fly faster then a jetplane. lols.
had ramly burger craving on monday and wanted to go buy bt gt MAJOR SAD wen i saw the bazaar at woody closed! ='( reali wanted the burger tt time bt oh wells, wil try find in msia. ahhaha.

Hari raya isnt much to loOk forward to this year. it just dun feel as special as it did the last time. plus me and alot of others are getting sick and a day before raya tooh. -___-'' wat a way to celebrate the end of the fasting month.
so 2nd sep was T's bdae and we celebrated with home made cake and brownies tgt with gifts and ALOT of water and cake flying everywhere. hahaha. it was a small celebration with less then 10 ppl bt we all had fun and we all hope that it was memorable fr her. birthdays only come once in a year anw ryt? =D

Special thx to Kuz, Aila, Shima, Syaf, Dibs, Shifa and Nurul for coming dwn and making the plan a success. not to forgetting wan, shz and the netbolalers fr contributing and making it a success too. eventho u guys wernt ther, u guys made it happen too so thk u so much aites.

well i gt to slp nw. need to pack my bag n brg xtra shirt tmr fr kenduri. this hapens evry hari raya eve. kenduri wil be held at my granny's house and we need to dress nicely fr the event noe. hahaa. wil update again soon. got a date with a fruit in dreamland.

PEACE

19 BEBEHH!! =DD

2010-09-02T00:43:00.005+08:00

2nd SEPTEMBER 1991 was the day that a very special person was born. She might not think so bt it is to me. if not for this day, i wouldnt have THE BESTEST BEST FRIEND EVER. if not for this day, i wouldnt have met this lovely lady and became her friend. if not for this date, i would have missed alot of the beautiful thgs in life. so thank you LORD for creating her on this date. sure is a very special date indeed.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY NADIAH DIYANA BTE YACCOB!!!

may You b blessed with health and wealth and everythg from butterflies to cupcakes this fine new year. may u b gifted with that new found strength and belief that u needed and use that to overcome everythg that bugs you and makes u feel like u are so low. you are a special person T. and i hope u know that. do enjoi this day and make it the most memorable one. HEART YOU LOADS!!

P signing off =D PEACE

DROOLLZZ

2010-09-01T16:56:00.006+08:00

HELOO!! HEE!!

FOOOODIESSS!!1 HUNGRYYY!!! XDXD

End of Ramadhan is coming. wow. like very fast seii. this year's Ramadhan has been very interesting for me. Many experiences that are very new to me. lol. had the YOG experience. tt was fantastic and tiring. the experience where T was in hosp and had to go surgery. fuuhh..im just glad shes all better nw. making kueh on my own this year. and it was a success okehh. LOL. yessaarrr.. hahah. hu saes nisa cnt bake. bluek!

went for therapy yesterday. it was ok ahh. the therapist and T made it fun. we talked and laughed. bt when she pressed the spot on my knee. it was like...OUCH!!! damn pain. haiz. she taught me some exercises and stretches i should do at home. and i should really start stretching properly before and after netball. dotzzz...
gona have another session on the 15th of sep. to go or not to go....tt is the question..

tomorrow is T's bdae. some of the plans cudnt be carried out as there were some...complications. bt no woriez..i ll improvise. hee! had planned smthg fr her. i really hope she'd love it. alot of effort by alot of ppl were chipped in and we are soo gona sabo her. wakakkaka.

buka is cominG! cnt wait!! buka come faster. nisa is hungry after making cookies and only allowed to smell bt not eat. XD dad cooking today. i duno wat he cooking. cnfrm bujang2 nyer laok. lol. bt watever it is, i love his cooking tooh. bt nt as much as i love my mom's. lol. ooohh super hungry. gona go help my dad cook nw. cherios!!

PEACE

HUNGRYYY

2010-08-29T13:10:00.004+08:00

im hungry. and its only 1pm. dotzz. this is the consequence for not waking up for sahur. XD
trying to get my head off certain thgs so i dcided to blog. 2nd sep is coming and everythg is going as planned. i hope everythg goes smoothly on the day itself. n no nad. i aint gona tell u anythg. u ll find out nxt week urself. BLUEK! XD

i miss my grls alot. i miss seeing their lameness all over and simply bullying them to run and do pumpings. some are even thinking of leaving to other schools. ohmyy...dun tink this way nisa. dang i dunno wat i want anymore.

moving on..my YOG duties are all DONE! wakakaka. yes it was tiring and doing it in the ramadhan month? omg torture. bt it was all worth it. getting to meet the athletes and playing arnd with them. im glad i gt to b a part of this experience =)

slept at kuz's house on friday. this was coz we had to go queensway on sat and my parents are only cmg into sgp at 6+. which is MEGA LATE. so slept and woke up at 1 the nxt morning. yes im the type hu dun like to sahur in the morning. hahaha. got ready and went out wit kuz at 2 to fetch her mom and go to giant. hee. well we went to giant to get kuehh. my aunt hvnt bought her kuehs yet. so after that she bought a few other groceries then we sent her home.

we made our way to Queensway Shopping Center aft that and went to look for some thgs and later made the AFY jerseyy =D it is ROYAL BLUE in color with yellow stripes or patterns at the side. and behind would be ' TEAM AFY' and our names and 'NETBALL' at the side. it is gona b AWESOME! lol. kuz picked it out as it was her turn to pick the jersey. after we made all 10 jerseys, we saw this catalog and there were windbreakers iinside. like OMA!! hahahha! kuz was all excited aft we asked for the price if we were to make a windbreaker. bt we later dcided that the windbreaker is for another time. and it wud b BLACK AND GOLD. YEAHHH. awesome much. =D

ooh i gt UT3 coming and i have not studied ANYTHG. damn. need to start mugging. i ll start nxt week. HAHAHA. hopefully mr procrastinate wud stay away so i can mug.
ok going off nw. gona check a few thgs. wil update soonn.

PEACE

=)

2010-08-22T20:13:00.004+08:00

ok op is over. phew! thx cik baidah and sab for calling me and informing me of the situation. really appreaciate it. i can finally quit pacing arnd. op was successful bt shes still groggy at the mmt. bt i am happy and relieved that the hardest part is over. nw is just the recovery part that she has to deal with.

COMON TOMATO! YOU CAN DO IT! MY TOMATO IS STRONG =D

ok i need to make twitter someday. bt like no nd ah. bt like need. aiyah nvm laa. lazy ahh. =S

haiz

2010-08-22T19:29:00.001+08:00

i know this aint gd and wun hlp the situation in any way bt...urghhh...tmro come fasterr!!
im getting very very very restless. pacing the room like some husband waiting fr his wife to give birth. dammit. u have to chill nisa. i need sleeping pills tnite. anione have some??

k dah imma shut up nw. *pssstt...mr monday? pls come faster. thk u*

OHNOOO...=(

2010-08-22T11:07:00.004+08:00

at home tday. damn shagged from all the yog events. Nad is in hosp. dang cnt stop worying man. she having a case of early appendix. so they gona operate her tday. pissed abit at myself for nt being able to b ther fr her bt hey, her fam are there so shes nt alone ryt? need to stop worying.
just hope the pain isnt that bad for her. hoping very2 much that the pain cuts her some slck.

hey tomato. you are strong. dun b scared or wat k. i kno u cn pull thru tiz. u aint weak or wat. even superman is weak agaisnt kryptonite ryt? when ur out and well, u wil b strnger than b4. look at it as if u went into battle and left with battle scars and a smile on ur face. soo gona bring u for makan outing when u gt better lor. i know u miss all the gd food ryt nw since u cnt eat. lol. makan outing is on me. promise =)

Get Well Soon T.

TIREDD!!

2010-08-18T00:07:00.003+08:00

Have been really busy with YOG these week and next week would be the last week of work. made some new international and talented friends through this experience working with the YOG event and seeing the smile on their faces and when they are enjoying themselves really pay off the 'not paid' issue. lol. so just for you all to know, below are the sports that the athletes would compete in. sadly, no netball. haizz..bt ohwells. i still love my netball many2. hahha.

it has been a very tiring week and i have been coming home feeling so shagged i cn literally sleep on the floor and noone cn wake me up til im done sleeping. ok i criusly wana update now, i do. bt my eyes just wun let me. they are unable hold on any longer so imma sign off fr now. wil update soon. chaoo.

p.s: PnT is loved =D

ROJAK??!

2010-08-03T21:58:00.004+08:00

heloo..at kuz's house now waiting for my mom. haiz. hw did i end up here u may ask, well i ll explain in awhile. i got to know that my relative passed away..=( * may his soul rest in peace and diringankn seksa dikuburnya. ameen* so since i am having mixed feelings now, i ll categorise my post in feelings. lol.

FRUSTRATION

so the issue is, i didnt want to go for the kenduri. not because i dint want to, it was because i have this trauma with mayats. i know its bad, bt i had a bad experience. haiz. ok so then we decided on where to meet and stuff. and i suggested meeting her at redhill mrt. she din agree, she told me to go to granny's house. so ok fine, aft much persuation yg tk menjadi, i went to nenek's house. then halfway in the bus reaching granny's house oledi, she texted and asked me to go redhill mrt. -___-" so aft the 'discussion', she told me to go to kuz's house. so tts y. haiz. stress kejap. ibu u have to stop being fickeled minded noe. bt nevertheless i love u.

INJUSTICE

whats with this guy trying to burn the Quran??
i watched the vid at FB tooh. and i am like..WHAT??! ur reasons are soo not realistic and true k. u tink only abt urself and u judge us by thgs that u dun even knw the real story is! u talk abt our laws and ppl in the specific countries. U DUN KNOW OUR LAWS. how well do u know it? u talk abt us being teh devil's religion? u see us going arnd burning bibles?? hu is the devil nw? what u do to us, we dont do to u, what does that show? u sae abt how the ppl at arabic countries are like, bt are they ALL muslims? do u know in depth about our religion? what gvs u the right to do such thg and say that its right to do and judge us and make our religion look like its bad? y criticize us? are all teh ppl in ur religion pious ppl? do all of them do as what the bible tells them to? are u being fair?? everywhere there are racist jokes about OUR religion. the INJUSTICE. the HUMILIATION. u burn our holy book, YOU are the devil. u are a selfless man. and i pity you

my fellow muslims and muslimahs. its time we b strng and b v v v patient. let the non-believers do what they want. let ALLAH deal with them if we really cnt do anythg animore. do not fight bc teh wrng way because that is not what Rasulullah s.a.w taught us. ISLAM is a peaceful religion and we uphold to Nabi Muhammad's teachings. we are ISLAM. and WE ARE PROUD. let them judge us eventho it is not true, i believe that all those that do wrng will be punished one day. be it muslims or non-believers, so let them b. u can burn our holy book, bt u cnt burn our spirit. u cnt burn our beliefs. u cant burn us. so good luck trying.

FEAR

thers this problem with my knee since 2 yrs ago. an injury that i din get checked for quite some time. so the thg is, it has been acting up on and off again. and alot of ppl are asking me to go get it checked. the thg is, i want tooh. bt one, what if its nothg serious? then it ll be a waste of money and time ryt? then like..if so then i am soo the ngada2 lor. kne cket pon tkle. haiz. nisa so the baby. then the other thg that is reali affecting y i dun wana go is that...DOCTORS. i hate them. i hate hospitals, clinics, u name it..i hate everythg to do with doctors. gvs me the chills. dun ask me y. haiz. bt will b going tmr wit tomato. just tt am super scared. and like..um..haiz. nehmind la.

MEGA HAPPY

hw else shud i put it in...ehem2...IRSYAD GRLS WON CHAMPIONS FOR IMG2010 OVERALL!!! WOOOOOT2!! hahaha. i am super happy that they got champions this yr. aft soo many yrs trying and trying to overcome the underdogs, we finally did it. u grls finally did it. and i am very very happy and proud of each and everyone of them.
CONGRATULATIONS BADMINTON, NETBALL, CAPTAINSBALL AND ATHLETICS GRLS!! CONGRATULATIONS SIR E!! CONGRATULATIONS SUPPORTERS!! CONGRATULATIONS EVERYONE!!

it is something that we all should be proud about. like..OMG. we won! it is really an accomplishment that u grls deserve. WELL DONE IRSYAD GRLS. u have done the school proud. =D

my dear T, u are a strng willed grl and does thgs wit all her heart. i believe in you and i understnd what u are going thru. do not let that brg u dwn k. byk bersabar. hey u are T! u are strong! u are the best there wil ever b. u might nt believe it bt i do. and i am greatful everyday that u are by my side at every step in my life. u are truly a gd fren and i cud nt ask fr anythg better. dont think too much yea. it wun do u any gd. me HEARTS u many2. =) we ll go thru tiz tgt wun we? we are PnT! ppl dun like it, they cn very well angkat kaki n blah. coz its their problem nt ours=) chin up..hold ur head up high and clear ur mind..HUGS

ok im done. venting it out to T and here helps alot. well tts life ryt? full of ups and dwns. shit happens so we have to just take it and turn it arnd into somethg that wil benifit us and makes us happy. life is short anyway, soon my time will come so i should make the best out of life while i am stil given one. end=)

PEACE

mmhmmm

2010-07-21T01:45:00.001+08:00

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

=D

2010-07-19T00:09:00.005+08:00

IMG NETBALL 2010

whats more to say? its all over on FB. Irsyad owned the competition wit 1st by the snrs and 3rd by the Jrs. i am very proud by each and every one of them. their performance was outstanding. and all i cud do was smile. every fiber of my body was proud of them. they applied EVERYTHG tt they learned on crt. from the 'kang-kang' to the spread and the defence maoott! yeahhh. and the shooting nicee glers. and the strategising. WOW. both SNRS and JRS have made me soo proud. they played their best and that's all tt matter. they deserve tiz aft al that hard werk. OMG. i reali dunno wat else to say. i am just soo very proud of them. and i am very2 touched by all the comments. =')

woke up at 1.30pm tday. was super shagged. slept over at kuz's house yesterday and woke up super early for the IMG NETBALL. so Sun is the oni day i cud wake up late=D
potato-ed alot tday and ate pizzaa! hee. skul tmr and i soo dun feel like going skul. haiz.

thot of quittin coaching once the Jr team is over and done with. i dunno. its not the money. not the fame or for namer n stuff. bt its matters of the heart. ive grown too attached to these bunch of ppl. watever i teach, i teach wimma heart. and im afraid i cnt gv the other batch wat i gave this batch. not seeing them again aft they graduate, is a big thg. im too attached to them. but what mdm yanis saes gives me a different view. haiz. so i duno. stay or leave? stay or leave? urghhhh
need to stop tinkinn=S

blessed. cursed. off the edge.
one by one, shit keeps coming. am i weak or is my wall needs building?
THANK YOU LORD FOR BLESSING ME WIT KUZ AND TOMATO.
i cnt live witout them in my life. they give me strength. they gv me hope. they put up wit my shit. and they are my life. wat i look forward to everyday. thk u so much dear lord.

PEACE

My weekend=)

2010-07-13T13:50:00.005+08:00

Jrs=)

Snrs=)

Helo people! =) in class now and super bored so decided to blog about the weekend. or atleast the best parts only tt is. xD

so my girls had intermadrasah last sat. all were present and early, alhamdulillah. and that is when the games begin. omg i tell u ahh, the umpire, like OMG! so teh mintak kne SEPAK u knoww. imagine this. u umpiring a INTERSCHOOL COMPETITION and yet u DON'T KNOW THE RULES??! like what??! comon ahh. umpires are important in every competition. the game was soo not cool k. my grls deserved better. my grls played fair til they went n played dirty. MAJOR CONTACT. MAJOR STEPPING. MAJOR OBSTRUCTION. all the umpire heck care sia! LIKE WTF??! It does affect our score okehh. u tink funny ahh?? i smack ur face then u know. ASS. my grls were rolling everywher like bowling balls and u sed it was no contact?? i ll fcuk u upside dwn if i see u umpiring during the netball competition tiz sat. i promise u that. BLANK BLANK YOU AH.

bt despite all that, my grls gt 4th and 2nd. and i loved the way they play. eventho there wasnt netball rules nomore, i am v proud. coz they proved to me that they are emotionally, mentally and physically prepared. and i am happy that they gt 4th and 2nd. anyone hu is kurang ajar enuf to say its not gd enuf will get a piece of what i have to say. n yes i am referring to specific ppl. hmphh.

so then came sunday. went to a jemputan and stuffed myself wit foodies. ahhaha. all tt was missing was the chocolate fondue mann. bt nehmind ahh. it was sodap as it is. went visit my cuz aft tt. she gave birth and her bby was soo damn cute! muhd iman hadziq=)) my mom wun let go of him wen we wanted to go home -__-"
but eventually she let go n we went home. It was major Potato-ing at home wit tomato and my family and watch WC finals that nite. ahhaha. went sch the nxt day like some hung-over zombie. LOL. bt nevertheless, it was a fun and tiring weekend=)

PEACE

UPDATE TIMEE!!

2010-06-30T13:21:00.004+08:00

Its 12.30 and i am done with class yaww! ahhaha. sooo lovin KAREN many2. shes our Anatomy faci and she is soo cool. haha. aniwaes, slacking in class now waiting for 2.45pm. then only i ll leave class as i have coaching. Tomato only meeting me at 5 at Irsyad as she has Land-Based module tday.

intermad is in less then 3 weeks and the girls have been training hard. i ll push them to the max these 3 weeks and i will ensure they achieve what they set out for. coz if they dun meet their expectations then they wud have failed and disappoint themselves. and that wud mean that i have failed and disappointed them. and i aint letting that hapen. the last thg i want is to see them sad. so its up to gear 4 ppl! lets step it up!

ohmy ohmyyy....clashing of many2 dates are making me sooo the pusing kaplaaa!! =S
will be having intermad captain's ball on the 10th. but at the same time the prize ceremony for the MYSPEX 2010 is held on that day too! YOG training is on that day also but i have already told them i am not going. but now how??! my girls played and won 3rd on that day. they deserved to go up on stage. FEEL the crowd. the CHEERS. the medals/trophies. they deserve that feeling after their well played game. but how now?? haizz. and my team. eventho we din feel it tt much. but we won ferst. and we have to take our medals/trophies tooh. but how??! haizz pusinggg!
17th of july is the netball intermad. and on that day there is this other competition. the 4pm captains ball thgy. and ust asked us to play. i havnt discussed this with the team yet. but its kinda tight! i definitly cnt go as i need to be ther for my grls. hawa is the co-coach and she going to intermad with me. Tomato is the official photographer and medic of the team. kuz might b going intermad with us. adibs and shz are playing during intermad. huda might prolly b werking. and that leaves us with Noi, Finah and Aila. 3 ppl playing fr captains ball?? not likely. haizz. HOW HOW HOWWW??!
oh and i hvnt make the jersey for my sis. damnn. mayb i ll try make it tiz sat and ask kuz fr help to collect it. cn kuz? pleaseee. i criusly need help here. hehe.

did i mention i am having MAJOR butterflies?? well i am. alot of wat ifs are in my head and it soo aint helping me keep my cool. but Tomato helped to clear my head once in awhile and i am kinda excited and scared at the same time. high expectations keep twirling around me for them and i know i shudnt but its just ther. but shake it off nisa. i hope they know that no matter what, the 'fun' has to b ther. the team work must b strng. the chemistry has to b present. and most of all, they have to play their best. only then, no matter win or lose, both they and me wud b smiling and walking out with our heads held high. ok nisa crappin too much abt tiz here now. sheeesh!

PEACE

Abandoned week

2010-06-22T13:09:00.005+08:00

PHEW! was abandoned at nenek's house for 5days and 1 at kuz's house. fam went hols witout me as i was having skul and MYSPEX and they had ntg on. sadded much. but oh wells.

DAY 1(Wednesday)

had skul today and was not going to go home that night. mom and dad leaving first thing on thursday and they cudnt send me to skul. so did the norm routine and went for coaching after that. right after coaching, went to bukit batok for Bowling Training and bowled a few rounds. i sucked big time and i knew i wasnt gona b at my best on the day of the competition and that freaks me out even more. this is because when it comes to sports, my expectations of myself are very high. and if i cnt meet them, i ll just disappoint myself badly. so went home after that.
thank you tomato for psyco-ing me and supporting me n following me. nad was late tt day. thx to the stupid cab driver. HUGS. chillax aites sweets. it wun hapen again. i ll make sure of it=)

Day 2(thursday)

had skul then went for training after that. as expected. oni the few came. but its ok. they had their reasons. then after training ol went home. a few issues came up bt haiz..watever la ehh. its hard to fill a tank that is already full.

DAY 3(friday)

had skul again. TGIF mann. was hvin butterflies tt day coz MYSPEX bowling was the nxt day. left early from skul to go coaching. Tomato was at Ubin on that day so she cudnt join us fr the session on that day. but she met me after and we went back tgt. i miss my gerls and i see improvement in them. but they have to work harder if they wana reach their goals. they HAVE to. its all up to them now. its like learning how to ride a bike. i can push and support u, but to be successful, u have to learn to paddle on ur own tooh.=)

DAY 4(Saturday)

MYSPEX BOWLING=S

2 words. I SUCKED. i was v v v disappointed at myself . i played for the Mixed category and Female Category. both ended up getting 3rd. like wat sia. 3rd?? 2 rounds per game. 1st round for the Mixed category i sucked big time. 2nd round was fine. 1st round for Female category i super sucked. like ended up wit 70+ oni?? like WTF??! but 2nd round was better. got my average 100+. haiz. from 1st last year to 3rd. effing irritating.

went for makan aft that. Ust blanja us MCD. sat and talked for abt an hour or so then we all went our separate ways. i find him v cute. have a major crush on him but heys, its just a passing crush. it ll pass=D

went home to granny's place ltr that day and slacked awhile before going to kuz's house to crash her place for that nite only.

DAY5 ( Sunday)

MYSPEX NETBALL.

ooh this day. the day that started it all. woke up at 7 and wen t to get redy. kuz was sending me to kallang and she wanted to stay awhile and watch us. so got redy and reached kallang at 8 on the dot. everyone was there except for one sorry soul and started to warm up. registered and warmed up all over, we take our places and look at the schedule. we were first to play. after much effort and team work, we pulled it off. CHAMPIONS once more. taking our title back from last year. but y dun i feel it? it just din feel like it did before. bt u wudnt understnd that wud u. some things are just more important to u then this. so hell, watever. u gt wat u wanted. went home, wit our heads hanged low. injuries all over. and tired faces on. went to makan awhile wit Tomato, Aila and Wan at KFC. then limped all the way home with a sprained ankle and bruised jumpers knee. -____-"

Round 1

Raudhah Vs AFY (0-17)
Tentera Diraja Vs AFY ( 4-10)
AFY VS Mukminin ( 14-5)

Semi-Finals

AFY Vs Darul Aman (14-2)
Tentera Diraja VS AFY ( 3-7)

Finals

Ghufran Vs AFY (1-12)

DAY6 (Monday)

went to school with a wrapped up ankle and walk as slow as hell. almost reached class late bt wasnt so it was cool. had lesson as per usual then dcided to partial. watched 'SHES OUT OF MY LEAGUE' with Bernice, Shima, Ashraf and Tomato. syaf left before we went for the muvie as she had other plans. the muvie was ok. funny and stuff. bt u have to b 16 to watch it ok!. =D went to makan wit nad aft tt as teh rest dcided to go home. we packed food and sat smwher and ate. then we went home.

DAY 7 (Tuesday)

which is todayy! pheww..gona go home later. ryt nw in class. was bored and cnt tink so i dcided to blog abt the week. am sick, and tired and limping like the hunchback of notradome. i miss my hunney n jr. fam came bc frm hols yesterday at 10pm. and fetching me later at nenek's house at 9 like tt. need to buy tape. my ankle hurts wen i walk witout it. Tomato sed it was coz it din have any support. n shes right. so gona bodek my mom n dad buy me tape many2.

ok wana sleep in class nw since its bloody hell borin. til the nxt update. CHERIOS!

PEACE

Holidays please dun goo...

2010-06-14T03:58:00.003+08:00

It is 4 in the morning and i am awake thanks to the world cup. hahaaha. going to school in a few hours time and im here blogging since the soccer reali nt entertaining me animore. xD
how i wish the hols would end later. going back to school ryt nw just aint in me and im soo in slackish mood. so spend the last week of my 2week hols slacking and camps n birthdays.

had netball camp on the 9th - 11th june and it was a blast! well i had fun alot. ntg is better then doing the thgs u love tgt wit the ppl u love=) had games and fantastic foodies. and campfires and many lame moments. lol. oh not 4gtting the water bom mmts. ooh tt one shiok! xD training session fr this camp is surprisingly not heavy and noone felt the strain but oh wells. ppl running the camp this time round are the netballers themselves and i find that they did great. eventho ther are thgs they could work on, but nevertheless, they did a superb job and im proud. still waiting for the pics to b fully loaded tho. major lambat siaa. bt it wud have been more fun if ALL the netbolalers were ther. u guys missed out on a fun fun camp babes. u shud have been ther=)

huda gt injured during the training day. her old injury reopened and teh cut was deep in her chin. she was rushed to the hosp by her mom n dad. i hope shes better. tt grl is soo joyfull wherever she goes. even aft the accident she can still smile n laugh and wun stop tokin. haha. cute gal. n i love her heart fr the tea,. she has smthg ive nver seen in a long time. lets see how it goes gven time.

Saturday was nenek's birthday celebration. but before i went ther, i had bowling training at bukit batok csc. went ther wit Tomato and met syasya n ust n some cute guy. haha. khai reached later and we trained 2-3 games and went off aft tt. i sucked sia during training. i so gotta buck up. i need to brg my numbers up by 50. my average 100 wun brg us victory.
Myspex is near and Pressure is on. bowling is evryone fr themselves. i need to prove myself ther. netball? witout kuz the team is breaking. tkd semangat langsong. shes our wall of support, who we look up to as a role model, who we look for strength wen we are weak. who gave us faith and support wen we were breaking. she is our pillar of strength in the team. but some ppl just judge her by a simple text. hah. funny how it is. i need to b strng. if i do make it, it ll b fr u kuz. my best on tt day will b fr u. i promise.

so to continue what happened on sat, went for nenek's bdae aft bowlin. celebrated at one hotel at ochard. camwhored, makan-ed like thers no tmr. and then we all had cake=)
bdae lady requests to go see the Merlion that nite. and it was coming to midnight. but nevertheless we all went to the merlion. and they parked the car at esplanade. great. esplanade out of many places. stupid thots in my head tt nite bt thx tomato fr the reassurance=)camwhored summore and played around until it was 1 plus in the morn then we went home.

Sunday was spent waking up late and doing my essay. ahhaha. went out to Alisya's bdae partay at Aloha Loyang Chalet aft tt and reached her chalet at 5 plus. camwhored, ate like a pig and continued my essay. thx kuz fr ur broadband, cd and webcam. hahaha. appreaciate it loads=)
HAPPY 4th BDAE ALISYAA!! may allah bless you with health and wealth thruout another great year and may u grow up to b a beautiful smart young lady=)

went home after that and stupid thgs on my mind again. but its ok it ll wear off. finished my essay and watch tv till now. lols.

PEACE

HOLIDAYYS BEBEH!

2010-05-30T17:37:00.008+08:00

changed my blogskin recently n yes i m soo LOVING ITT. hee. thx for those hu likes tiz skin. this really shows how a freak i am wen it comes to netball. so anw, NANA has been away. she sin KL then tmr she going off to vietnam. haiz. NANA COPAT BALEKK! rindu kayy! =( souvenir dun 4gt =P despite evrythg, u knw i love u. n u r the oni NANA in my heart. i hope u knw tt.

so for those hu are still lost at wher we r at nw, ITS THE START OF THE HOLS BEBEH! WOOOOOOHOOOO! hahaha. bt sadly ours is only 2 weeks ah. sadded. bt hey its bette rthen ntg ryt? xD

ok so have been stuck at home since FRIDAY. and it is KILLING ME. had company tho n it helped alot. thx tomato=) <3 many2 ="D">

DAD - 127 MOM - 145 NURUL - 130 WAN - 80 ME=) - 144

DANG! lost to my mom by 1 point. dotzzz. -__-" but its ok. i olmost reached 150 and i am v happy with my performance=)) yes my mom is THE BEST bowler in our fam. dun jeles k ayah. hahaha. so went fr makan aft tt. secret recipe=D had Mac&Cheesee for dinner and it was SUPER SODAPP! hahaha. so now at home slacking. shopping mood is soo overwhealming now and i soo have to collect money and go shopping. IBUU! SHOPPING MEH! HEE
PEACE

HELOOO

2010-05-23T13:02:00.003+08:00

yesterday was Rahmat sister's wedding. reached singapore at 12 like that and went to NANA's crib before moving out n meeting NAD at admiralty mrt. haha. NANA n NAD were wearing baju kurong and heels and me? well standard ah. kurta and jeans. hahha. NO WAY ME WEARING BAJU KURONG MANN. hahahha. so we headed to yishun by train then took a bus to his place. yes followed NANA's instincts and it kinda brought us to wher we were supposed to be? ahahahhaha!

so reached there finally and were welcomed by Rahmat and Aidah. sat with em at table number 6 together with zul and started to go get makan! ahhaha. Rahmat kurang asam go n literally take each of evrythg at the dessert table when NANA sed she wanted each of evrythg. ah AMEK KAU. luckily i was mega hungryy tt tym so can eat many2. hahaha. we camwhored and ther was tiz super cute kendarat. OMG. i feel so like a pmpn gatal ahh tt time. bt he was just damn cute. XD. so after the makan and all we went up to amat's house awhile adn camwhored in the pengantin room. then after went off.

went to slack at NANA's place aft that and just watched muvie and tok2 n LOL. hahaha. then aft NANA had to go madrasah so waited fr her to ciap then me n NAD went off. sent NAD home then took off to granny's place. otw ther tummy started to get super painful and started to get mabok. got worse along the way and when at granny's place i was literally unmovable. pain was on n off aft that and aft drinking hot tea, it felt abit better. few hrs later i was as fit as a fiddle.

kuz, i feel u n u knw i gt ur back. u tc n b strng yea. im wit u all the way. AFY nomore.

boredd

2010-05-16T19:10:00.006+08:00

ok update time. its been soo long since i update this dusty blog.
so tday is a sunday and i am soo slacking like a couch potato.

been a v bz week in skul nwdaes. like i dun even have time fr lunch, bt wat to do. its the 2nd year so must grow up some time rite? lol. going to meet my grls this friday and i am oh soo looking 4ward to tt. miss them soo much and i soo wana hear their lame jokes and just b arnd them ryt nw.

last thurs had training wit aila and nad. huda cnt make it fr another 2 wks or so coz of the injury she had during the tornament. she had an ankle tear. OUCH! get well soon bodek. so anw, kecik, izza, aidil and some others went dwn to crt wit us and they played soccer n just fooled arnd. haha. bt me nad and aila trained our butts off and omg the day aft tt i cnt feel my lower half of my body. LOL. so anw sat was spent gg to queensway wit nad. nana was werking tt day so she cudnt tag along, shz and azume was supposed to follow us too bt they cudnt make it so its just the 2 of us. bt we had fun aniways. there was alot of distractions ther and i soo have to save $. I WANA BUY SOO MANY THGS!!
nad aint well tt day so we went bc early. GET WELL SOON DARL. reached granny's house at arnd 7 then slacked wit kuz and went home aft tt.

ok soo im backtracking all the way bc to 29april. i wana sae thk u many2 to dearest AAINAA, NAD, SYAF, SHAHIIRAH, AIDAH, ZUL & RAHMAT. they suprised me wit a sweet bdae celebration wit a mega goreng. it was a combined celebration of mine and syaf's bdae. i mati2 tot tt we were celbrating syaf's bdae so i was soo into it. i was holding the cake and turned arnd the corner, then i saw sya'f wit a cake in her hand. the mmt i saw tt i was like..ok nisa, kau da kne goreng. i was speachless and bt i loved it soo much. they gave me a PUMA $50 gift voucher and a SUPERB MEGA NICE green whistle fr a gift and its more than wat i ever want. thx alot dearest BK. i love u guys soo much. HUGS!!

despite the thgs tt happened on the 30th, i wana thk IZZA, KECIK, NAD, SHIMA, REYNA & all the other SLs hu were involved fr teh nice small suprise. sorie i was being a dwn sour puss on tt day, bt i had a bad day, thx alot tho u guys made me smile=)

ok lazy to update more nw. will update more wen smthg intresting happens. HEE. CHERIOS

PEACE

....

2010-05-01T21:06:00.004+08:00

i was hoping thgs wud b differently tiz year. was hoping i wud akteli enjoi it. but no. SOMETHG HAD TO HAPPEN RIGHT? i waited soo long fr it. worked soo hard to help em to win it. put my HEART and SOUL in it to make u look good. bt u took it all away wit a single text. i aint blaming u tho. n i aint blaming her. i gt noone to blame bt me nw. and its downright making me lose my mind.
like COMEON AHH. out of all thgs. y tiz?? y on tiz day?? y??

people wud say, alah rlek ahh. remeh temeh jekk nih. well they dun get it. its WHO i am. WHAT i do. PART of me. u take tt away, ur taking part of me away. and it FCUKING HURTS.
dalah AFY tkle harap. now my oni place wher i cn do it with the people i love is taken away tooh. its complicated. doing it saved me. in any way possible. it gave me bc hope. it put my mind off thgs that hurt evry single nite. it gvs me strength to go thru another day knwing the shit i had been thru will haunt me evry sec. it IS my life. n nw its gone. evrythg is dwnright miserable nw. n u took it frm me. you, hu i cnt blame. ARGHHHH!!!! %!($&#!&)(!@*#!(^@#*!&@)#(*

happy birthday hanisah. and thk YOU fr the greatest gift ever.

HELOOO!!!

2010-04-28T16:37:00.005+08:00

OKAESS....in NANA's class nw and waiting for her to do RJ before going to cwp soo i ll update tiz blog to pass the time. haha. well school has started again. 2nd year now. *aiseii mann...kakak2 sei* hahaha. the modules and facies are fun funn! maths aint in my module animore and i dun have to retake it coz my overall results is a C so tiz means HEAVEN BEBEH! ahhahaha
new classmates are EFFING FUNN! gereks people in my class = MEGA KECOHNESS. me likey. hahaha.
so anwaes, had anatomy module tday and the faci damn gerek. instead of presenting PPT and doing the old same cycle everyday, we played games and the whole class were damn happy. super slack and ended class early tooh. YAYY!! I LOVE YOU KAREN! hahaha.
had a major selenge mmt just now. went out to do some stuffs then otw back to class, dengan penoh semangat, i went to w3 when my class is at w5. ahhaha! and i only realised its the wrng class wen i opened the class door and realise tt the faci was a guy. my faci is a gal! hahahaha. PAISEH SIAA. ahhaha. nad osoo selenge go foloow blindly. LOL.
Went out with NANA & Rahmat to Fareast yesterdayy. NAD cudnt come along coz she gt tiz DOAL talk. we went strght after skul and 1st thg we did was makan. ahahha. aft tt went to get NANA's perfume and smthg else. *kening* walked arnd awhile then after we all went home.
GODD!! my mood to shop really come at a wrng time siaa. ahhaha! i gt no $ and the mood to shop is building up! i wana get pumps and a bag n my tudong n handsox and an iTouch n many2 shrts and many more laaa! yes i wana get a new dress tooh. yes a dress. i knw wat u tinking bt keep ur thots to urself kays. =S
so highlite of last week? it was definitely the netball moments. coaching and tornament on the 24th of april=)
eventho ther were some stressfull mmts, and at some point of time i feel like gving up on evrythg. im just glad i din. playing my first love in the rain helped me to relax alot toohh. thx to all those tt kept my hopes high=) i stand by to what i sed b4. playing with BODEX is and frever will be the ones tt i am olwaes looking 4ward tooh and enjoii so the very much. SO LETS MAKE TIZ WERK PEOPLE!!
ok so the mass friendly was between 5 teams. which were Irsyad, AFY, Ghufran, MarslingCSC & KNIGHTINGALES=))
we won 2 and lost 2 but it aint that bad. we din train at all for tiz so its considered ok ah. plus we din have our full strength so i ll gv the ego pain a pass. i really look up to KNIGHTINGALES siaa. they are like...WOAAHHH!! cnt put it in werds. hahaha. watever it is, defeating them is my target and i am soo gona werk my butts off fr it. =))

PEACE

bla..bla..blaaa

2010-04-22T14:18:00.001+08:00

ARGHHHHHHH!!!

2010-04-22T01:20:00.004+08:00

im losing evrythg i thot i id have frever. history repeating again. wat shud i do? run away? or fight? im tired of gg thru it again n again. is it me? is it nt me? y isit happening? wher did i go wrng? why?? someone gv me the ans. im tired. the sense of serenity aint aniwher near me. suicide sounds good. bt it aint the way. its gona get me to deeper shit. mayb im rite. i shud walk the earth alone. tt way i wun hurt anione aniwher. tt way they wud b happier. evrythg sux. my life sux. i suck.

its haunting me. evry breath i take. evry step i take. evry single beat of my heart. it wun leave me. FCUK U FR MAKING ME HU I AM NW. FCUK U FR MAKING MY LIFE INSECURE. FCUK U FR MAKING ME HAVE TO LIVE EVRYDAY IN GUILT AND FEAR. FCUK U.
u made me hu i am nw. u happy? bt u dun knw tt dun u. ur off wit ur perfect life. i wana thank you fr making me tiz way. thk u soo much. u gt all the credit to tiz.

DEAR LORD, if u hear me. tell me wat i do wrng? tell me y do i stay up crying in most nites. tell me y aint i at peace. y is evryone arnd me hurtin? y r u gving me gd frens when u knw imma hurt them? y do u bless me a gd family wen u knw imma hurt them n brg shame? y do u gv me such an easy life wit no financial probs n stuff wen u knw imma take advantage of it? y do u bless me healthy wen u know imma spoil myself? y do u gv me such a gd life knwing imma just do bad thgs repeatedly. whyy. tell me why. TELL ME WHY

how many times must i go thru tiz to redeem myself? is this a test? process of redemption? what?? u gv me good frens, then u take them away. u later gv me the best. nw u throw me a challenge. tell me what to do. im tired trying to figure out all my life. i affect evryone arnd me. those closest affected the most. broken frenshps. selfishness. hurt. if im meant to cause soo much pain then take me away. make their lives better. they dserve the best n i just aint it. i dun dserve my family. my friends. my life. all too perfect. take me away. make them happy.

SERENITY ONLY COMES WHEN DEATH CALLS MY NAME

HAPPY FRIENDIVASARY!!

2010-04-20T08:27:00.002+08:00

20April marks the first day 2 strangers met. E37A was where it all began and it was a brand new journey for us. we began as 3, then 4. bt sadly, it deteriorated to 2.
even so, u never left my side. u are truly a loyal and trusting friend and i thank ALLAH evryday for letting me have u in my life.

i still rmmbr wen we went out n stuff. wen i told u my secrets. wen evrythg seems lost then it was bright again. wen we make stupid rules and jokes. it was funn. haha.
u were ther fr me thru thick n thin. we laughed like nobody bizness at stuff others dun understand. we gossiped abt many thgs and acted like idiots along the way. through hard times, u were ther. u lend me ur shoulder and advices i cud never 4get. u wud nvr see me as a bestfren coz its ur policy, i understand. and i dun mind=) bt nevertheless, u were more then a friend to me. to me ur like a sister. a sister i din ask fr bt was blessed wit one afterall.

i know ther have been rocky roads fr us. some i mite nt knw of. bt u shud knw tt u have been ntg bt a great fren to me and tt i appreaciate u evryday. if i have hurt u in any way i mite nt know of, do 4gv me dear friend. i am only human afterall. bt i knw tts no excuse and i soo am hoping tt ud 4gv me. i know time has been an issue fr us and that i have been a suckish fren. i admit i was wrng and that i nd to grow up. selfish maybe? or mayb i just suck.

whatever it is i wana thank you for being a part of my life. though thers a saying stating that ntg lasts 4ever, i hope we would. i apologise fr all the hurts and problems ive caused towards u. i seek 4gvness frm u sincerely frm deep dwn. and i want u to know that i HEARTS u to the max and that thers noone in the world that cn ever replace u in my life.

HAPPY 1Year FRIEND-IVERSARY NUR AAINAA NADIAH BTE JA'AFAR.
THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHG, DEAREST FRIEND=)

XOXO,
- Hanisah

PEACE

sings

2010-04-19T20:34:00.001+08:00

Every time you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost and
That you're so alone
All you see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can’t see which way to go
Don’t despair n' never loose hope
Cos' Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah

Insha Allah you’ll find your way

Insha Allah

Every time you can make one more mistake
You feel you can’t repent
And that it's why too late
You’re so confused,
Wrong decisions you have made
Hunt your mind and your heart is full of shame
Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cos' Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah

Insha Allah you’ll find your way

Insha Allah

Insha Allah you’ll find your way
Turn to Allah
He’s never far away
Put your trust in Him Raise your hands and pray Oh
Ya Allah
Guide my steps don’t let me go astray
You’re the only one that showed me the way,
Showed me the way

Insha Allah

Insha Allah we’ll find our way

I want shoes!!

2010-04-17T00:12:00.002+08:00

I WANT THESE SHOES CAN??!

SOOO NICE!!

PEACE

AWWWW....

2010-04-11T22:23:00.003+08:00

2week wrap up! haha

2010-04-02T21:25:00.006+08:00

ok people this is gona b a looooooong post. so bear wit me ok. hahaha.
akteli v the malas wana blog ahh but like got no other thg to do so here goes....

ok last 2 weeks, on the 23rd of march 2010, was the Official CEP programme at Marina Barrage. its the YOG thgy ahh. i think i described it correctly. the event only starts at 2.30pm but we had to go ther early in the morn as we had to rehearse evrythg again. plus there we 3 new ppl joining us and Grace isnt wit us animore=(
so made our way ther and reached the barrage at 10am. so blablabla....blabla...and the day ended at 7 like that. if i rmmbr correctly ah. haha. the event wasnt as tiring as the SFC we had in december. but nevertheless it drained us as its been quite some time since then. had some major bad comments but some major good ones tooh. its ok we ll do better in august. teehee.

soo on wed and fri in that week was the norm routine. wich was netball wit my gerls. AFY training was cncled as it was a no show. yes no show. dunno wat to say oledi la. tired.

on thurs went to ICA in the morn to make my adk's I/C. aiseyy da bsaww adk aku. haha. i stil rmmbr my first I/C. sume cm step da kakak2 jek. hahaha. NAD accompanied me n my sis tt day, *thx nad* haha. and after sending my adk go skul, we had lunch wit NANA at her werk place then went and slacked at NAD's house. i feel major bad smtimes coz i owaes like tumpang NAD's or NANA's house. cm owang tkd uma g2. haiz. sorry to trouble u gals many2 babes.

so on the 27th had the part 2 of teh leadershp course and HAWA cudnt go wimme. =( but i gt my cert in the end and am damn happy i learned smthg new. haha. finished early again and went to merayap at vivo. when i gt bored and tired of walking, went to granny's place and chilled.

Now it brgs us to this week. hahaa. had FOP training in RP on mon and tues and i had alot of fun. met the people frm the camp and we had to learn the mass dance and play games and such. but it was fun and was damn shagged after that.

My gerls had friendly's wit Siglap Sec on wed. and i do not know wats the exact score but we scored 3 in the first game and 6 in the 2nd. thats a total of 9 points! eventho we lost, i am very very proud of them as they improved alot since the last time and we will try to brg it back next time.

1/4/10. 1st april. APRILS FOOL. hahaha. went to NANA's place at 12plus2 after goin ICA to collect my adk's I/C and the solo shopping. hahaha. yes i went to the supermarket alone. BAEK AHH NISA!! and i gt all the ingredients needed correct okaee. haha. ok i shall stp my puji dri.
i bought these ingredients as NANA is gona bake a delicious treat. hehe. i dunno wat its koled but its chocomarshylemolishious! hahaha. damn nice i tell u. wen i ate it, i went strght to cloud 9. hahaha. THANK YOU AAINAA!! hehe.so had lunch at her place then terdozed off awhile. woke up wit NANA poking me arnd at my neck area. JUST LIKE MY FATHER LA YOUU. had to wake up ahh coz had to go for the SFC appreaciation dinner at sports school. so heres the thg, wen i woke up, nga selenge ofcoz, i read a msg frm NAD. she say she may nt b able to go fr the dinner coz of smthg and tt she wud update me. somethg abt a DISLOCATED SHOULDER. i punye selenge g percaye. lupe plak its 1st april. so it lasted til in the bus wen me and NANA were otw to sports skul. it hit me that tday was 1st april and that NAD sounded way healthy on the phone wen i koled her b4 we left NANA's place. and NANA was acting super funny wen we alighted the bus. so i kept my guard up. hahaha. tts wen i heard a familiar sound, NAD's necklace. so i stopped and moved back. HAHH!! just as i thot i was pranked -___-"hahaha. but i was happy that both my dearest frens are arnd wimme tt day.
the dinner was fun tooh. Marina, Natasha, Chris, Kevin, Raudhah and Pradeep sat wit us in one table and it was effing fun! we LOL-ed and Boogied and played games like nobody's business. haha. then ther were the maskotts. OMG they are sooo CUTE!! soo gona kidnap them one day. hahaha. so after the dinner ended, we walked frm the school to i dunno wher ahh. but parted frm NAD at the bustop then me and NANA took a bus too and went to her place. my mom fetched me ther and it was a looong way home aft that.

today? well i shall not story now ahh. very lazy ahh. hahaha. will update soon!

PEACE

wrap it up yawww~ =)

2010-03-22T03:47:00.011+08:00

okaee its 4.30am nw and i still cnt sleep. damn. and i am suppose to wake up at 5. HAHA!!
so since i have ntg to do and i need to make myself sleep *coz i promised Nana and Nad* i shall type to sleep. LOL. first time sia got ppl type to sleep. haha.

so what happened last wk?

MONDAY

Mom & Dad took leave on that day and siblings wernt skuling as it was the first day of hols for them. yes MARCH HOLS. me laen cite ahh. da mmg hols dr feb. *eyebrows go up n dwn* hahha! so fam went out and played bowling and watched movie and went shopping and stuff. but i stayed and slacked at home. i was tired ok! body aching summore coz of the after effects of netball witout proper stretches. XD
so just chilled at home being a couch potato and eat and eat and eat. GEEZ i tink imma get fat wen skul starts.

TUESDAY

Me and Nana had Full dress rehearsals for the YOG thgy at Marina Barrage on tiz day. yes we rehearsed and rehearsed til we get it right. the makan was ok ahh. free mah so cnt comment. haha. found out tt 'someone' was nana's fren. hahahahah! kekek ah lu sister. so after the training ended, me and Nana slacked at marina barrage awhile til its like arnd 7 plus then we made a move. cnt reali rmmbr some details bt other than tt, i had a blast=)

WEDNESDAY

had coaching tday. slacked at Nad's place in the morn then was joined by Dian later arnd tgh hari i guess. cnt reali rmmbr. lols. bullied Nad to the max. and dian joined in tooh. haha but i knew all tt bullying wud mean payback frm her someday. and i was sooo not looking 4ward to tt. haha.
so went to crt at 2pm. met Hawa and Huda as they were bored and gt ntg to do. started coaching at arnd 4 and ended at arnd 7. then after, we were supposed to have AFY training on our own. and guess wat. all cudnt make it except fr me n Nad n Huda. so...hungry and felt tt ther wasnt any point in training just the 3 of us. we went to CWP to mkn. halfway the mkn, mom koled and nagged like nobody business so went home aft tt.

THURSDAY & FRIDAY

SHL camp happened on these 2 days. it was ok laaa. cn say it was fun. boring oso have. but i enjoyed evry min wimma frens=) we did cheers and planned fr the FOP itself. we played games and i enjoied the Fooseball the most. haha. Nana & Rahmat cudnt stay overnite coz she had class and he had werk. so at nite it was left wit me, nad, syahir & zul. (BK) and not forgetting Dian=)
during the dinner time we cn go shower and stuff and me n Nad were yaya papaya saying we dun wana shower tt nite. coz effing cold. haha. but conclusion was we had a water fight and both of us were damn wet in the end. (so much fr tknk mandi ahh) so there we were. MY ONLY JEANS DRENCHED. and my wite tudong oso. lucky gt hand dryer. i dried my tudong bt left my shirt and jeans wet and went back to the agora as we were gona b late if i hand dry evrythg. XD
went back and had some night activities. (ok i knw it sounds wrng bt it aint 'that' kind of night activities okehhh) it was smthg like the amazing race. collect all the packages afterwards and piece up all the puzzle bc tgt. changed baju after that then it was lights out.

alot of us din sleep tt nite. or atleast slept late. basically all tt slept late was the malays ahh. the other races were asleep oledi. except fr kokocrunch=) we shared stories and gossiped and broke certain rules. but it was fun. haha. the rest had MCD too. pagi2 buta mkn MCD, hahaha. funny la.
i had alot of fun with alot of ppl tt nite and soo was damn high to an extend tt me n Nad had a rolling competition. hahaha! bt it lasted awhile oni ahh coz we gt dizzy after that.
what happened after that i shall nt mention. THE MOST EMBARRASSING MMTS OF MY LIFE. i dunno y and how it happened bt it was very the memalu kn and abit funny coz of the leash. XDXD ok i shall nt mention animore.

the following morn we continued wit the activities and Nana & Rahmat joined the cmp once again. hee. Nad had to go Poly awhile coz of her toenail as it was hurtin damn much and yes i feel abit guilty coz it happened wen she was playing fr my team during the Muhammadiyyah Netball Tornament. bt she was gven medication and she is taking em so tts gd=)
after all the games we had lunch and i slept. we slacked fr a long time then at arnd 4 i left with Nad to go fr coaching. Shz wasnt well. Get Well Soon babe. felt guilty fr leaving early and suddenly w/o telling Nana sooner. sorry babe! it really was last min=(

after coaching, in the rain i mite add. was damn cold and damn tired. sent Nad off then took cab to Jrg point. i was shivering and this cab driver just wun stp toking to me. so i simply answered wit a simple..'haha' or ' oh reali?' then i shut my trap. once ther i looked fr the toilet frst to change my shrt. cudnt celebrate my sister;s bdae wet and cold mahh. after tt i went to look fr swensens and i gt lost. yes believe it onot i gt lost. XD bt found it in the end and ate fish baked rice. damn hungry sia tts y cn finish v fast. went strght home after that and slept liek thers no tmr=)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARL=)

SATURDAY

went to msjd al-Falah fr a leadershp workshp and was abit late. it starts at 10 and i reached ther half and hr late. hawa reached much later bt wat matters is tt she came. haha. the leadershp wrkshp was interesting and i learned alot frm it. but it was cut half way as the speaker cudnt continue due to a bad throat. so it will b continued next sat. insyallah im gg but nt sure yet.

after that went to lepraks wit ust yousef and hawa, syasya, eeqa & myself at Mcd. ust blanja fr teh meall. yumyumm thx ust. ahha. then we dizcussed abt a tornament. we wud b hving a tornament and it wud most prolly b on the 24th of april. see how as its stil under dizcussions. went to vivo after tt and shopped fr nurul's gift. yea i shopped alone. hahaha. it was weird bt fun ah. soo long since i did anythg alone nwdays. so wen i did it again after a long time, it felt diff. lols.
so went to kuz's place after tt and played charade wit her. haha. nolahh she cnt talk as she just went fr operation last monday. tonsilitis. GET WELL SOON KUZ. makan ice cream tuh byk2. haha. went to nenek's place aft tt and kena grg damn bad frm Nana. thx ehh Nana. OTP wit Nad awhile then had to cut off coz damn hp batt olmost flat oledi. hahaha
went home after that and slept liek a bby.

SUNDAY

which was yesterday. slacked at home and bcame a potato. hahahah. yes damn lazy dayy.
watched tv and ate and sleep and did ntg bt b as lazy as i cn. lol.

ok i tink imma go off now. wana go mandi and ciap. then baru tdo shiok. haha. going off at 5.30 and i have to bathe b4 my siblings wake up and cause me to b late. then i lahh yg kena nag wit my mom so early in teh morn coz late. eil update soon. nyts=)

PEACE

busybusybusyy...

2010-03-14T19:06:00.003+08:00

ok im blogging now after soo long. PHEW!! its been a very tough week fr me.
so the week starts with monday,
it was Syaf's birthday. bt our plan was ruined coz me n nana had YOG briefing and most of then can't make it tooh. so slacked at nana n nad's place then after went fr briefing @SP. we had fun ther=) the briefing ended at 6plus which we then went home.

Tuesday was spent at was supposed to be training for YOG but it was cancled cause the gallery at Marina Barrage was closed on tuesdays. lol. so i spent the day with NANA and her friend, Asyraf. we went to town to tmankn Asyraf go get his lappy bc. after that we rounded abit then we all went our separate ways. it was fun! haha. akteli thot the man was a doll. so i gt a shock of my life wen it moved lor. hahah!

so wed i had coaching and training. coaching was at Irsyad then went fr training at woody crt. not many turned up bt it was better than 4. Nad had a rough day. but she pulled thru=) shes a strng gal. dun gv up aite gerl!

Thursday was spent at Marina Barrage. no, sadly not fr fun. haha. i went ther fr components training. yes i. for the ferst time ever nana wasnt ther wimme and i soo screwed up the gallery thgy. plus i had to train the newbies and there was a NEW SCRIPT. haiz. its ok nisa. u cn do it. nana wil b there the next time. just memmorise it all over again. hee.

Friday was coaching and training again. spent the day at nad's place b4 gg out to woody crt. nad n me nt feeling well. and training n coaching was super slack. bt evrythg turned out fine. stayed over at kuz's place tt nite. was super nervous abt the tornament the next day bt kk fid helped me to rlax. ahha. thx kuz. she olwaes helped me to feel alot better. hehe.
oh toking abt her, shes got an op on monday. tonsilitis. GET WELL SOON KUZ!!

so saturday!! the big day!! YOUTH ALIVE NETBALL TORNAMENT
woke up at 7.30 then got ready. bought some stuff then went strght to kallang crt. (after getting breakfast at mcd tt is. XD) then it was registration and GAME ON!
so we lost the first round. it was against KNIGHTINGALES. they were damn strng i ll gv them tt credit. 2nd round was against TAPAK SUCI and we soo ruled tt match 23-0. WOOOO!
3rd match was with this-one-team-i-cnt-rmmbr-the-name. and we won tt round tooh. cnt rmmbr the score tooh.
and the last match fr the qualifying round was against THE OTHER TEAM. yes their team name is THE OTHER TEAM. hehe. tt one our team v pissed against. lagi2 my kuz, me & hawa. like wth ahh the umpire. alot of mistakes they just close one eye sia. got one is major stepping ahh and they stil count the score. tt makes us draw with em. soo not fair sia. we were suppose to b leading. STUPID UMPIRE. haiz.
but we made it to the finale and we had to compete fr 3rd and 4th placing coz we lost to the SUNDAYZ. which were v good tooh. fr the 3rd and 4th placing we had to go against MARSILING CSC. haha. our fav rivals. haha. it was a gd fight to the end. but it ended wit a 1 point loss fr us. bt hey we put up a gd fight.=) i am very proud of my team right nw as we did pretty good compared to last year. we brought it back like how ive olwaes imagined it to be.
Thank you ALLAH fr making it happen. AMEEN.
we gt a bag each and in the bag was tissue papers, notepad, dumbells and i dunno wat else. ahhaha. bt it was the experience and gtting to play wimma team again tt was the best feeling ever. eventho there were some stressfull mmts during the game, bt we manage to pull thru as a team. alhamdulillah.

so went to lepak wit hawa n nad after tt. we went to vivo n makan n chilled awhile then coz i cnt tahan oledi we all went home. i went to nenek's house ofcoz and once im ther the ferst thg i went tooh was teh bed. hahaha! after awhile texting nana and nad i went off to lala land. woke up at 10 plus then went home and continued sleeping.

tt lefts us with tday. today = major slack day. sleep n watch tv n on lappy oni the whole day. hahaha. will update more soon. wana go sleep. CHERIOS!!

PEACE

p.s: if u reali loved me, u wudnt have done all those thgs to hurt me in the first place. u tc

SYAF bdae

2010-03-14T18:37:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYAF!!!=))

Her Birthday was on the 8th of March. for those hu are wondering i did wish her on time kayy. hahha. just blogged abt it late.
so sorry dear. *HUGS*
aniways! happy 20th bdae darl!! may Allah bless u with health and wealth thruout another great year=) HEARTS U MANY2. hee

PEACE

%E#^@#%$!^#&!(@#!$!#&

2010-02-28T14:01:00.004+08:00

first and foremost, I apologise to my gerls fr the stressfull moments during netball and the scolding and shouting. the time pressure is getting in my head too much i guess.
we ll see how next training goes. insyallah evrythg shud be ok. ameen.

i cnt really rmmbr wat happened this week. but what i know is that i spent alot of time with NANA and NAD. well i remember yesterday tts for sure. went to this BODY WORLD at science centre. well i was being noty and took some pics illegally. but i was caught so must delete evrythg. -__-"
being nice? id say its ok laaa. alot of interesting stuffs inside.
being direct? id say it was DAMN BORING.
u just walk around and read evrythg and look at the exhibitions then go out. you are not allowed to touch the stuffs or take pics or do anythg at all. which is y i took only 10mins to finish the whole exhibition. my parents on the other hand took more than an hr! i really dunno wat they doing inside sia. tengok ke tenong sei? but the interesting thing is that every one of the exhibitions are all from real speciments. yes. REAL FLESH AND BONE AND MUSCLE.
anw thx mom for the tix and experience. it was cool. just abit boring ahh. but ok ahh. ok i ll shuddup nw.

so went to granny's house after that, the day was damn hot i tell you. everyone is like hogging the fan and squeezing in the aircon room and all. but we had fun. gossip sessions with makcik2 and kuzzies. laughs and met kuz. haha. soo long neber see her. kinda miss her alot akteli. but AFY training will be back on schedule every wed. YAYNESS! so i ll get to see her evry week now and also get to play with my own team again after so long. heeee=)

so on fri i had coaching, before tt hanged wit NAD. NANA was werking on tt day=(
reached irsyad damn wet like a rain monster and started coaching. girls im so sorry but u gerls still have alot to work on. im sorry if i pressurise you alot lately but its just how it is. i ll lighten up i promise. i dunno wats wrng with me lately, netball with my gerls is not suppose to feel stressfull and pressurising. i think the time is getting to my head a lil too much. i shud relax. relax nisa.

really need to clear my head. too many thgs messing arnd inside. mayb wil go ECP and just chill ther one day nxt wk. need the time off. Sigh. everythgs a mess.

PEACE

Happy birthday Aidah=)

2010-02-20T20:07:00.005+08:00

Ok i am DYING of boredom. YES. i think im literally dead oledi ah. and to add to that, ok nevermind. lets not add anythg right now. so first thgs first...

So sorry Aidah that i could not make it for your partay tdayy. i ll make it up to you one day otehhh. but aniwaes.

HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY TO YOU DARL=))
ok so what happened last week, returned from hols with fam on tuesday.
wednesday was spent with NAD & NANA. after that went for coaching and was bullied by NAD and SHZ's lil bro. *thx eh NAD, now he tinks i kissed someone -_-" * which i didn't ok! so after coaching went to woody, had dinner and then went home.
Thursday was spent leprak-ing at NANA's house. HEE. was a damn fun day. thx NANA & NAD. oh but before that had to go to AlFalah mosque and gt lost along the way. but thx NAD, NANA, SYAF, & WAN for pointing me to the right direction. HAHA.
Friday was spent Lepraks-ing at NAD's place then went for coaching. went to Granny's place after that and stonned all the way.
after that....here i am. THE MOST BORING-EST SATURDAY OF MY LIFE.
god i literally died on the couch i guess.
but thx NAD&WAN fr reviving me at the nick of time.
im soo making a what-to-do-when-you-are-stuck-at-home list.

ok so get this. i have no idea when the intermadrasah is now. some say it is in April, some say it is in June, now im hearing that they say its in July!
MAKE UP YOUR MIND PEOPLE!!
aku yang tension kat cni. so much to do. so lil time.

then theres MYSPEX. oh tt one is in June or July.
haha. and we have not started training at ol. mmhmmm. AT ALL.
wat to do. wat to do. i hope next weeks training will have massive response.
right now? liek oni 3-4 people respond. eh comon la sei. sometimes i just feel like giving up.
but if i do, then they ll b 1 less person that believes.

PEACE

HOLIDAYY!!

2010-02-16T03:00:00.007+08:00

HONEYY IM HOME!! HEEE.

A 3-day holiday dragged to 4-days. LOL. OKAY!! let's start updating.
(More pics at FB)

So last Friday was officially the last days of freshman year. WOOOO! i know im practically the last person to say this but....UT IS OVER!! HOLIDAYS HERE I COME!! heee.

SAT 13022010 (DAY 1),

My fam and i, also with 3 other of my mom's soster's family and my Granny. went to PORT DICKSON fr hols. never heard of it ryt? well i recently learned that it is located at Negeri Sembilan. LOL. So we berangkat frm the house at 8+. yes suppose to go out at 7 but as usual i cudnt wake up. LOL
sp then met up with the makciks2 at Macap(as usual), then made our way to PORTDICKSON.
so bla bla blaaa....bla blaaa....then reached PD at arnd 1pm. so we checked in to our apartments. yes it was an aparment, not hotel. and chilled awhile b4 going out to explore the place. it was ok ah, cosy and very much like home. haha! we all had lunch at a warong nearby, then went to explored the area. actuali to be honest ryt, PD is kinda boring ah. coz gt ntg much to do.
So afetr a boring ferst day, had dinner at the apartment buffet. *trust me it was damn dead*
then went back to our rooms and slacked.

SUNDAY 14022010 (DAY 2),

Woke up late again. haha! i din join them fr breakfast. i ate ALOT evrytime i go hols wth my fam. and i tell u ahh, i like effing gain 4kg laaa!! *jump off cliff* cannot like this. must exercise and diet all over again. *psyco self*
so day2 was spent outside of PD. since it was boringg, we went to JUSCO to shop our butts off. haha. apparently alot of the shophouses nearby are closed. CNY mahh. wat do u expect. so at JUSCO we boronged abit then left fr dinner, yes again, and the food was....oklaaa. nt tt fantastic bt alhamdulillahh. rezki dr ALLAH. =)
OH! but b4 dinner, me and KkDAYAH went to the beach with her dad to have some fun. since we were awesomely bored in evryway. so we rode the BANANA thgy. haha! oh and the 'STORM'. the 'STORM' is way more fun then the BANANA to me. LOL. its damn thrilling wher u lean bc on a certain float(oni 2 people allowed), then teh boat will pull you and turn wildly and stuff. and the boat went freaking fast laa! hahha. but it was fun. due to the lack of time, we went bc to the aparment as it was coming to 7pm.
I bought new jeans! oh and a tshert, ORANGE SEI! oh and a turquoise&pink shoe. hee. i know its not like me to buy pink, BUT ITS FREAKING NICE I TEL U. ok watever it is. i love it. so yea. =)) then after it was off to lala land fr me. hehh

MONDAYY 15022010 (DAY3)

Woke up EARLY tday. amazing ryt? LOL. well its just as i had a play date wit KKDAYAH. lol. we planned to go fr kayaking the day before and that's exactly what we did. we paddled from one end of the beach to the other. yes i got play cheat sometimes, i let my kuz do all the work. HAHA! but she did the same to me so we r even. LOL. Kayaking was SUPERB. had alot of fun and arm got damn pain after that. but it was worth it. haha. get this, wen we were done kayaking, i helped my kuz get off the kayak. confident that i wudnt fall. but i was soo wrong. thx ehh wave. the wave akteli pushed the kayak wen i was standing on it. so SPLASH!! i fell in the ocean on my butt. -_-" ok i know its funnny. laugh it off. LOL. so after that we checked the time, and it was 10am. the breakfast buffet ends at 10.30am. so we all went to the buffet (which is indoors and carpeted), WET. yes i was dripping wet and i went fr breakfast. BAEK NISA. haha. k so then blablaaa..blablaaaa....we checked out @12pm.

so this is what happened that caused me to reach home a day later. my makcik2 termasokla my mom, wanted to singgah MALACCA as they wanted to borong there. this is bcause they tak puas with the PD experience. so after the ONE1/2hr drive, we went to this lorong. and O-M-G. it was damn jam packed i tell u. dalah lorong, and evryone is squeezed inside like sardines! so we took 3-4 hrs just to get out of ther. once out we made our way to this plaza which i cnt reali rmmbr its name, and had very LATE lunch ther. it was 6++ at that tym. affter that, after all moods are spoiled due to the jam, we all made way home.

TUESDAY 16022010 (DAY4)
it was 2am and we just reached home. my makciks and nenek n pakciks sume sleep over at my house fr one night. they were too tired to drive bc to sgp. so here i am right now. blogging abt it as i cudnt sleep. i slept like ALOT in the car these 3days. I Miss AAINAA & NAD & BK sooo muchhh. i thot NANA & NAD were stil on9 wen i gt home bt they were oledi asleep so its ok.

NANA thx fr all ur msges and thots. u accompanied me through all the boring mmts. LOL. cnt wait to see u on wed. HEE
Nad so sory to hear that poly was closed that day, hope ur arm isnt gtting worst. i ll accompany u go doc on wed kays. okbest.
NETBOLALERS&JEE so sry i cudnt join ya ll fr the outing, i was overseas and the outing was v last min. LOVES!

PEACE

WRAP IT UP!!

2010-02-08T23:05:00.003+08:00

HELO HELOO. update timee! hEE

so let see...

FRIDAY

LAST DAY OF SEM2. *sob* it was the last day and it was maths. -_-"
but nevertheless LOVED the day. wasnt able to stay long after school and left at 3. as i had coaching u see.

" Dearest W16M, i had loads of fun and good memories with u ol. thank you soo much for all the company and LAMENESS and Pizza dayy and....well to much to say. i enjoied evry mmt wit u guys and i hope we all shall pass with flying colours fr UTs. hehe. Must keep in touch okeiii! LOVES!! "

so after that had coaching with the kids and they improved quite alot. but stil have some rusty edges that needs polishing. hopefully they brush up and get serious soon. Intermad is getting closer and closer evryday.
so the thing is that since its the last day of sem2, BKs plan fr evryone to dress nicely. which = no tshert and jeans. *trauma face* so after much persuation, i wore a dress with white pants tt day. yes a dress. had to choose between dress or skirt. so like definitely i ll choose the dress la kn.
imagine me in a dress. HAHAHAHAHA.
so wen i stepped on the crt, all the grls were going like. ' woah kk nisa in a dress?' or 'woah sexy seii' or ' woahh kk nisa ni dr maner? baru balek jmp org ke nk jmp jap lg? ' HAHA. cute la this kids. i was damn paiseh bt partly my fault as i 4gt to brg xtra baju on tt day. LOL
some of em literally sujuf syukur on the crt laaa! wlaoo. din tink me in a dress wud b this big. hahaha. ok so after all teh kecoh2 and training and stuff. i left fr home.

SATURDAYY

initially i had no plans in the morning as Nad has plans wit her frens. i only had coaching at 3pm tt day. but later she told me the outing tk jd as all of em cudnt make it. and the trip to the hosp oso cncled, so she was free. hahaa. so i went to chill at her place. was abit shy at ferst coz her mom was at home. but warmed up later on as they were v nice ppl=]
Lydia (Nad's sis) was damn cute and kecoh oso. hahaha. i loike. Nad saes her sis isnt like tt wit alot of ppl. just me. haha! well im glad she isnt shy arnd me. coz it helps me to nt get shy arnd her or her fam. LOL.
so anw, went to crt and reached ther at arnd 2.45 like tt. chilled awhile then started coaching. the kids warmed up to nad v quickly. and i was damn happy coz i was worried at ferst that Nad mite get bored. but she enjoied herself and im glad she did=)
took many2 pics and celebrated Nadiah and Fitri's bdae tooh. SABO was Not tt rabak bt it was fun. ahhaha! sry nadia i sapu cake on ur face. and sry fitri fr pulling ur pants dwn. ahhaha!
so sent Nad home aft tt then made way to granny's crib. LOLL!
had more fun ther wit kuzzies and mkcks LAMING ARND and laughing our toots off. haha!
after all that energy used up, slept in teh car like a log, All the way home.

SUNDAYY

it was mugging day fr me and unfortunately 'mkck' came to visit. haiyaaa. so wrng timing.
so mugged & webcammed wit Nad til 2 plus in teh morn then we both tersleep on our lappys wit the webcam on! HAHAHA! tersadar at 3 and went offline after tt.

TODAY

Chem ut tday. started the day wit super stoning mmts and eyes wana close shut frm all the mugging the nite b4. bt later met up wit BK fr breakfast and the day started to get non sleepy.
LOL. I LOVE THESE PEOPLE. oh Syafeeqah was not well tday. GET WELL SOON BABE. REST MANY2 OK. so later did the UT @W15A. i thot i was alone bt later found out tt i was in the same class as JOYCE!! hahaha. how happy were we. LOL
well Chem UT basicly sucked. evryone knws tt. but i did my best. all i cn do now is pray and hope fr the best.
went to study at woody lib after that and mugged. bt the mugging part tuh paham2 la ehh. LOL

so now at home, mugging again fr tmr's paper. hvin Cog UT tmr. Insyallah cn do it. GO NISA GOO! =)

ok tts all fr tdayy i guess
CHERIOS!!

PEACE

Ummmmmm

2010-02-04T12:01:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was Physics. and class started at 8.30 and ended 9.45. WOOOOOOOOOOH! for the first time ever Kok Lim was rocking our sox. haha. but unfortunately he did revision after that and it was damn dead. the whole class were literally dead. even Syazwan. and hes usually the hyper one in class. haha.
It was FIONA's Birthday yesterday tooh. we celebrated in class with a NUTELLA CAKE!! and Ana and Susu sang her an original song. Susu played the guitar and Ana sang. the lyrics are how we all remember Fiona. ahhaa. damn nice and funny. LOL. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERL!

so after skul went coaching and wasnt feeling too good and kinda cranky. i tink coz lom makan. haha. but just looking and fooling arnd with the girls made me feel so much better. and something unexpected happened. one time i was gving my attention to teh new batch of netballers, the snrs and jrs were huddling around Mdm Yanis. so i thought they were in trouble or something. so i made my way to em and halfway there, they turned around and with a box of Fererro Roche in their hands they sang Happy Birthday and walked towards my direction. Suprised i stood ther like one idiot and walked back slowly. i thot it was someones birthday but then they circled me and sang louder. hahahha! i was soo shocked and touched and confused at the same time. in my mind i was like, 'eh birthday aku ke nari?' hahahhaah! but they sang it cause they din know wat else to sing. CUTE! its akteli a appreciation gesture from them to me. and im soo touched.

THANK YOU SOO MUCH MDM AND DEAREST GERLS. I LOVE YOU GUYS TO THE MAX!

so tday is cog. in class now and Fiona blasting music out loud. like Kbox oledi. ahhaha! having PIZZA FIESTA in awhile and sooo cnt waittt. damn hungwyy ya knww. later gona study with BK and bestie. entah blaja ke tk nnt. hahaha! but must study sia. UT is next week and i cnt afford to get a low grade. so yes. STUDY NISA STUDYYY!!

ok tts ol fr nw. til the next update yeaa. CHERIOS!

PEACE

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!

2010-02-03T23:05:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KUZ!!

Thank you for all the times you were there for me. every time i needed a listening ear.
or a shoulder to cry on. u never let me down. not once.
May Allah bless you in Wealth and Health in many ways possible.
And may u get well soon insyallah. AMEEN

PEACE

p.s: Birthday gift will will b at your doorstep wen i see ya aite. hee. HAPPY 23rd!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH!!!

2010-02-02T23:15:00.006+08:00

OK UPDATE TIME! hee. the mood to update is up on the highest Shelves ryt now. so imma type evrythg dwn b4 the mood go dwn the drain. LOL

the week was started with the BEST MONDAY EVERR. no monday blues this week. haha. went to *** (cannot mention later die) hahaha. so as i was saying, went to *** with BK and Bestie=)) well not all of em were ther. oni 7 people including me. Aidah, Feeqah & Shahiira cudnt join us. so sad=( but nevertheless, it was F.U.N!! wud b more fun lau sumer ad ahh. bt i enjoyed myself soo much i felt better n str0nger in many ways. played all kinds of games from catching to playground to rides. so gereks laaa. Oh toking abt rides, was persuaded by hamba2 Allah to take the 'U' shaped ride. I LIKE SCREAMED MY HEAD OFF LAA. thx ehh. -_-" hahaha! bt it was worth the experience i guess. in some ways im stil trying to figure out. LOL
slacked at the ombak-ombaks and sungei pemalas and chilled all the way. now tts wat u kol FUN under the SUN. hahaha. ya it was hot. VERY. lucky im nt the type yg senang sunburn. LOL

so then later went for dinner. then it happened. ALAMAK. some people hu tink they are funny haaad to ruin tthe day. haiyaaa. i shall nt mention hu la k. not nice la. haha. so these ppl tink they soo pandai go n b kinda rude to my frens. and NANA was damn pissed. so we did a lil payback n walk off. hehehhe!! evil ryt?? i knww. noone hurts me fwens n gts away wit it. HMPH!!
so then went to Woody and mom fetched me ther=] then it was SLEEEP-all-the-way-home-time. HAHA.

so wat happened today? oooh today was damn GEREKS! i love my Bio faci. ASHRAY. we ended class even b4 2nd break! we din need to do any ppt. all we did was answer a few questns and if he sees that we understand, we are released. AND! each team gets 10 bux each frm him. GEREKS KAPER. WOOOOOOOOH! maken sayang aku pat dekni. ahhahaha!
so then after had lunch wit BK=) then went chill wit em jap. then after balek class sndr laaa. coz if i were to balek, wher i want to balek sei. ahhahha!

so after skul NANA had some Entre workshop. so i chilled in class wit NAD. dizturbed evryone coz i was super high then chilled. coz was tired. penat gak eh kacau2 org. getting old i guess. hahaha!
Then ther was after skul, walked to CWP wit Feeqah, Shahiirah, Nana, Helmi & Nad. Laughed our toots off with all the lame thgs we did. haha! the later it was left with just the 3 of us, Nana me and Nad, coz the rest had to get home.
so we had dinner at Swensens and had a hell of a time again. LOL. I love these people man. ahhaha!

So now, im at home. on my bed. and sugar rushing (all coz of the sticky chewy chocolate i had just now), and Wan is the only one layaning me ryt nw. HAHHA! naseb gt Wan if nt i ll b playing badminton or netball in my room and making soo much noise that my dad wil force me to sleep. LOL

Dear you, dunch tink too much okaes. Ini sume ujian frm HIM. b strng and i knw u ll pull thru it just fine=) we will olwaes b ther fr u if u need any body part of our body dear n u knw tt. LOVES!!

Dear Other You,
'To love and lost is better then to not have loved at all.'
tink abt ur next move and do it ok. sometimes its just not worth the wait. but that, only u can dcide=)

OK NITES PEOPLE!! TILL THE NEXT UPDATE.
PEACE

SINGSSS.....

2010-02-02T17:02:00.003+08:00

I give you an inch and you take a mile
You make mistakes that erase when you smile
Im starting to feel like it aint alright
How can you care if I dont cross your mind
Cause I
Say I wanna talk but you just push me away
Tell me your leaving when I want you to stay
I never thought that loving you would hurt me this way
But Im the only one to blame
Cause Im always saying

Its ok, it's alright
I put the pain away and let it slide
I forgive and forget it
And then you promise me I wont regret it
But I do, it's not right
Because I turn around and let it slide
And im crazy for thinking
That someday you'll change things when you keep on crossin' the line

Something about you won't let me go
Maybe hes better being alone
I, keep saying im gonna move on
But it's so hard when your all that I know
But I, Say I wanna talk but you just push me away
Tell me your leaving when I want you to stay
Never thought that loving you would hurt me this way
But Im the only one to blame
Cause im always saying

It's ok, it's alright
I put the pain away and let it slide
I forgive and forget it
And then you promise me I wont regret it
But I do
It's not right because I turn around and let it slide
And Im crazy for thinking that someday you'll change things
When you keep on crossin' the line

Boy I wish I didnt give in so easily
Oh, I dont know what to do
Cause I keep on feeding the flame
When I should really be telling you we're through

Its ok, it's alright
I put the pain away and let it slide
I forgive and forget it
And then you promise me I wont regret it
But I do, it's not right
Because I turn around and let it slide
And im crazy for thinking
That someday you'll change things when you keep on crossin' the line

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

2010-01-31T20:32:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIL BRO=))

PEACE

WRAP IT UP!!

2010-01-30T16:44:00.004+08:00

Was browsing through pictures on google and came across these. haha. SOO NICEE. its soo nice tk sanggup nk makan rase2nyer. LOL

So wat happened past week? well WED had coaching but couldnt make it On FRI as was not well. mon and tues were spent wit nana and BKs and THURS was damn FUN and HOT under the sun. LOL. we played netball this time with many more people and it was gereks. eventho it was extra hot on that day. but we had alot of laughs=))

Im at granny's house now. nga bored so thot of blogging. Nad, Syahir & Nana filling up my time so it aint tt bad=) What Syaf talked to me yest spoke to me. its soo true.
i can let it go and move on now. no more anger. no more dissapointment.
just pity. All i can do now is pray fr them. insyallah HE will help them. AMEEN.

Im like addicted with ' Do You Remember ' by Jay Sean ft Sean Paul and Lil Jon.
haha! thx to Rhoma. he keeps playing it in class thats whuy.
oh toking abt class, next week wil be the last week of lesson. after that would b exams then HOLIDAYY!!. ahhaha. soo loOking 4ward to it.
Mom planned a vacation at PORT DICKSON on 13-15FEB.
and soo loooking 4ward to it. HEEE.
and shes planning another onw to MACAU in DEC. we gg to the Disney world ther tooh. YAYY!
insyallah tak g on a day yg i skuling sei. ahhaha.
but the sad part is that W16M will be apart. nomore 1 class. =(
then on the first day of skul have to be antisocial again. haizz.
but will think about that when i need tooh. hahaha!! right now, im just soo loving my life
and those that made it happen and worth living=))
so thx oh soo much! LOVES!

PEACE

LAST CHAPTER OF AN UNWRITTEN BOOK....

2010-01-30T16:34:00.003+08:00

and evrythg will be temporary UNLESS you make make an effort to make it PERMANENT.

PEACE

HEEEEEEEEE!!

2010-01-24T13:00:00.006+08:00

Weekends...suppose to go granny's place today. but mom went to Macau. so plans were to stay at home on sat & sun. so siann. haha. evryone except me went out yesterday. i dunno wat they did but they were back late. i din follow as i was nt well. tday was left at home again. but this time with granny. luckily had some company for both days. haha. thx Nad=]] webcammed with Nana tooh. the businesswoman. owaes so bz. hahaha!

so anw, the past week was spent with BK & Bestie.
it was great! had loads of fun. LOL. not too mention all the laughs we had.
had coaching on friday, had some major setbacks but we pulled through just fine=]
quite worried abt them actually. intermadrasah is less then 5 months frm now. that is very little time. and suspension is the last thing i need now. time to get serious. time to get down to business. time to push it to the next level.

" i believe that everything happens for a reason.
And that if HE takes something away it is because there is something better waiting on the other side.
there is no point talking it out animore. coz noone will be listening. accusations will be made and the innocent will be blamed for no apparent reason. Therefore let it all be a mystery and let it all be assumptions and hate. either way the conclusion will be the same. either way, noone would ever be listening. either way, the blame would still be on me.
so if this is how it is going to be, then i wish you all the best in life and may HE grant you happiness and peace. not once i regret knowing you and i cherish evry memory we shared.
Thank you and im sorry. take care. "

PEACE

SINGS

2010-01-21T13:25:00.002+08:00

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith,
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith

SHOUT!!!

2010-01-20T22:50:00.004+08:00

[=HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY AAINAA=]

PEACE

Netball freak says....

2010-01-15T14:01:00.004+08:00

"INSPIRE AS MUCH AS U ASPIRE. NETBALL. MORE THAN A SPORT"

NETBALL TODAY!! WOOOOOOOOO~
my life suddenly feels so complete.
HEEEE.

PEACE

STUDYSTUDYSTUDYY

2010-01-14T13:05:00.003+08:00

Ut3 coming. and im only like halfway thru the revision.

gotta study nisaa. comon Ut3 is important.

had coaching yesterday. Numbers of newcomers were building up!
gona have frenly with wakTnjng next Sat and i am pushing the gerls extra hard.
i cn feel their anxiety.
dun wory gerls. i have faith in you. just do ur best and u ll do fine=]

so currently in skul now. waiting fr presentation to start.
i need ot lose weight man. i gained like what, 4kg??
shit. need to start jogging again.

hanged otp wit kuz yesterday. and it was damn hilarious laa.
we laughed like 2 idiots. haha.
this Saturday confirm going to granny's place. YAYY!!
3 weeks redy neber go u knowww. so sad.
finally a weekend worth waiting fr. LOL.
talking about that.
I CANT WAIT FOR HOLS TO COME!!
-15022010-
2 months with no school!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOO~
like finally can slack to the max. haha.
well netball olwaes comes ferst ofcoz. teeeheee.
oklahh. gotta go fr presentation now.
till next tym peeps!

PEACE

holaaaaaa

2010-01-10T20:31:00.003+08:00

Finally its the end of the first week of skul. haha! never thot i would feel this tired at the end of the week. guess i just want the holidays to stretch longer. so mon to fri was the norm stuff. only tt on tues i went to make my ezlink card with bbygerls. yes i lost my ezlink card. so typical me ryt? i know. hahha. friday i wasnt in class. this is bcause of RP openhouse. i was involved in it and was on LOA. it was cool=] hanged woth bbygrls and nana's classmates. they were awesome and we bonded instantly. haha.

so SATURDAY,
had YOG briefing at NYP. it lasted til arnd 1 plus. aft tt me and nana went to RP. yea the open house. nana's friends wanted to go ther so nana was teh guide. and i was later left with the iffie, kiki & nana's classmates. went to makan then hanged and chillax at one of the booths. the booth was fun. it was the magic booth. i learnt 3 card trix tt day. LOL.
so after that i went to Changi Hosp. i dunno visit who ahh. but i know i was tricked by my parents. i reached there even before they finished eating their dinner. so i had to wait. was soo bored that i texted nana n wan. and i koled some people just to tell a joke. ahahha! funny stuff sia. so went home after that and confident mama wana go online tt nite. just as i entered the car, i slept like a log! all teh way home. and continued at home la ofcozz. so then it brgs us to today.

SUNDAY = SLACKDAY
the only day i can just slack around at home and be as lazy as i can. heeee. watched tv like a couch potato. and blasted music soo loud my neighbours sang along. HAHAH!
so tts ol fr now i guess. will update soon.

PEACE

tahon baru la seii!

2010-01-02T15:43:00.003+08:00

2010
A new year has begun.
im going to be 19 this year and im sooo not looking 4ward to it. next year im like going to be 20.
mak oiii...i feel so old mann. time waits for no man. *or woman*
sadly im left behind still not wanting to move on.
when shud i start moving? i oso dunoo. curse you **** for causing so many setbacks in my life.

negatives aside,
its a new year and i dun have a new year resolution. haha!
2009 was a very tough year for me.
alot of downs occured. BUT! alot of UPs tooh!
i wana thank these people for making my life wayy better.
for saving me from the deepest jungle and catching me whenever i fell.
but mostly, just for being a part of my life.
KUZ, HAWA, BBYGRLS, WAN, ZEE, MYGERLS & not forgetting...
MYFAMILY.

I-LOVE-YOU-ALL-SO-MUCH

PEACE!!

Short post

2009-12-29T11:27:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMIEE!! heeeee!

yes its my mom's bdae and shes a year older. wakakaka. *da bsarr mak aku. teehee*
at nana's houx now. nga wait for her siap. nga feeling minah nihh. coz im on her bed with a cap on a mirror in front of me. hahaha. going out tday wit darls but kiki wun b joining us. sad k. bt its my fault gak ahh. i hugged her too tight til her neck simpul biawak. hehh. so sorie babe. *guilty conscience*

have coaching tomorrow and soo looking forward to it. hehehehe. dunno why ahh excited. just miss them i guess. haha. oh made plans with farah tmr oso. before coaching. so long neber see her. will b good to catch up. till the next post people! ADIOS...

PEACE

WELOOOOO!

2009-12-24T14:07:00.004+08:00

HANISAH IS ADDICTED TO REPLAY BY IYAZ! hehh
well im at home now and shoving my head with songs. hee. weather is very very cold and mimi is having a massive pool party. * mimi go awayyy! nisa wants to go out n playy*
woke up arnd 11 just now. tu pon sbb ad contractor datang and take measurements of the curtains.
mengacau ahh org nk tdo.
slept at 4 yesterday. was waiting for my sis n bro to come bc. they went out wit my uncle and came bc soooo late. my dad prasan oni wana wait, end up im the oni one left awake. haha.

had coaching yesterday @3.30. bt they turned up v early and i m very2 happy with attendence and punctuality. my gerls improved alot. and im proud of tt. they came a long way. bt still gt alot to work on. stamina and basic skills need to b perfect. train hard, play hard aite. i knw u cn do it gerls!
was with dad before that, played bowling at west bowl. 4 games. hahaha! sempat kn? i knw. after that dad send me over to clementi and i took train down to boonlay. was gona meet HAWA at jp. we catched a muvie at 12.20pm. Planet51. okla the muvie. kinda crappy. kinda funny. i gv it a 6/10. lol.
went home at arnd 6.30pm then went to makan at Horizon Hills. *its in msia*
not bad ahh. very classy and sedap. heee. he place was damn nice. tempat org kaya2 katekn.
and the toilet! OMG. thers a couch in ther i swear. its damn BIG!! and nice. and cleann. and...alryt u gt my point. the golf course was damn big n nice oso. k i ll stop tokin abt this. makes me sound so jakon. hahhaa. went home ryt after dinner and tts wen i waited fr my siblings.

webcammed wit NANA! hee. so long neber do tt you knww. missed her like hell. cnt wait to see my lalings on mon n tue. outingg on tue. gerekss ahh. hahaha. k dah nisa cukop.
havnig coaching again on wed. Ma'arif and Arabiah mite b having frenly wit us too. lets see hw my gerls have improved so far.

Its funny how small little thgs makes u feel so happy. u dun need millions n millions of dollars or hundreds of hugs. just these small lil thots are the ones that lasts 4ever in ur heart. MY GERLS, FAMILY, KUZ, BBYGRLS, HAWA & HUDA. these people made the world a better place fr me. soo much better. and i appreciate you guys alot. so i wana say THANK YOU. for always putting that smile bc on my face. alwaes making evrythg wrng alryt again. fr just being ther n making my day.

I LOVE YOU ALL TO THE MAX. LOVES!

PEACE

BUTTCRAMP!!

2009-12-22T15:41:00.006+08:00

Its a Tuesday and im at home. supposed to be meeting up wit NANA tday. bt my date fr the evening was cncled. and my mom finish late tday so i dcided not to go out. plus my body hurts alot. butt especially. hahaha. and bruises are getting uglier. ouchh.

how i got so roughed out u mite b wondering? hee. i had a bad fall yesterday. but im good. no bones broken. just bad bruises all over. went to Ubin yesterday. had a W16M outing. but the ones who turn up are just 7. so much fr a class outing. haha. bt we had fun. we cycled all around Ubin and i am soo amazed by the nature around. whatever i learned in sec5 Geography, i saw real life. hahaha. i know i sound like a nerd bt it was just soo cool. i love nature. cnt blame me fr that k. haha. so met up with Bro, Susu & Banana at woody ferst. Fez Bubble us laaa. sae wana meet at the Cwp rooftop bt in the end never show up. haha. met Shaamz, Helmi & Mad at tamp later on and had breakfast. Mad was the last to arrive. *note that he stays around the area*

Reached Ubin arounf 11plus and we started to cycle and explore. Susu and Wan were our guides and leaded the team. we cycled soo much i tink i lost sooo much weight. haha. which is goood. *thumbs up* hee.
there was this one very nice cottage house near the sea. behind the house was a jetty leading stright into the sea itself. it was very nice! we took pictures and stuff. There was a time that evryone just cnt peddle uphil nomore they all got off their bikes and pushed. me osoo laa. hahahaha! damn funny. otw bc to the jetty after our last round, i had a lil accident. thx guys fr taking care of me and stuff. appreciate it loads.

once we were out of Ubin, we were all hungry so went fr dinner. Mad, Helmi & Susu ate at Changi ferst. the rest of us din as we were gona meet Fiona fr Lunch. went to Tamp after that and met Fiona. had dinner than went home wit Helmi. the rest of them took the bus.
The ride home wit Helmi was Hilarious and full of stories. alighted at clementi and went to the mosque ferst for prayers. after that went to mom's office strght.

so tts my story fr nw. hehh. some pics are below. the rest of it is at my fb so if u wana go see go ther aite. *Chey mentang2 la da ad fb.* wakaka.

PEACE

YAWNN

2009-12-19T02:02:00.005+08:00

COOKIE MONSTER!! heee. cute aint he? funny hw somethg so simple cn make anyone soo happy.

*YAWNN* cnt sleeeep. very tired bt cnt sleeep.
even the sheep counting aint working nomore. mayb i ll note dwn a summary abt wats up.

Had skul last mon. was the last day of skul tho then hanged and chilled wit Darls aft UTs.
headed to kuz's houx aft tt and chilled with her. Tuesday was spent out wit kuz. we had Brunch at harbourfrnt foodcrt tgt wit KIKI, IFFIE & NANA. they were gg to Sentosa on tt day. i din join them as i was gg out wit kuz. =)
so aft Brunch we bid farewell as they go to stock up and me n kuz made our way to the cinema.
We watched 2012. it was damn guud. i knw we are practically the last people to watch it bt it is damn guud. so fr those of u hu hvnt watch it or say its crappy. GO WATCH IT. its damn guud.
sooo guud tt all my popcorn went upside dwn on me n i din even realise it till the end of the muvie. haha. n yes, it all stuck on me like glue so i had to brush it off.
we went bc to kuz's houx aft tt chilled and ate pizza. heeek. pizza ruless!
went to fetch her mom later at arnd 8.30 then bc home. we chilled and watch tv and stuff.
laughed alot and gt entertained by soo many thgs happening arnd me.
finally went to bed and slept like a rock.

Woke up late the next day and gt ready fr netball. HEEK
the only thg tt keeps me alive.*other than air, food and water.*
so on tt day i coached the girls abit then had frenlys with them and Marsiling sec.
well as expected we lost to marsiling sec.
why? haha. wat else? everytime thers training well, only the same 5 appears. tts why.
sometimes i just feel like gving up on my team. bt no. i have to stay strng n keep hoping they come. if i dun start then hu will ryt?
so later at 7 my mom picked me up. and it was HOME SWEET HOME fr me mann. heee.
the first thg i did when i reached hm was sae hello to my bunniess. heeee. I MISS THEM.

so tts wat tt hapen on the days.
i slacked at home fr the past 2 days. was damn tired.
gg to granny's houx tmr. and mon thers gona b a class outing. my current class tt is.
wed thers my old skul outing. at ecp. bt i dunno if i wana go or nt.
as my darls come ferst. i hvnt seen them in awhile. miss them oh soo much.
hope to see them soon.
well tts ol fr nw. dad's gving me the y-arnt-u-sleeping-yet lecture.
till next time.

PEACE

PHEW!!

2009-12-14T13:26:00.003+08:00

After a tough week. here i am now. stripped from my strength and basically everywher hurts.
im in skul now. yes, in skul. *for those hu are oledi on hols u dun have to rub it in.*
but the bright side is that its that hols officially starts 2moro!!! WOOOOHH!!
can sleeep it off. haha

so lets wrap this up!

Thursday & Friday

had YOG event on these days. *YOG = Youth Olympic Games*
and yes i missed class and UT thanks to it.
so i was stationed at Marina Barrage. there were activites were all arnd the Marina Barrage itself. there were 4 stations and i was in station 1, which is the gallery. basically what i did was that i have to gv the athletes playing for the YOG a tour of the gallery. i was stationed there with NANA and KIKI. GRACE was our I/C. SHARON was also there as well. she was the one hu trained us on how and what to do and say during the training dates. Alan, Eugene & Mohan was the higher up people but they were very nice and all. i really enjoyed the experience and the time there.
one happening that i can never forget is when on the last day of our event, there was this athlete from Lebanon. she was an athlete. her name was LIZ. before going off she wanted a green shirt. she was looking fr it and wanted to trade her shirt fr the green one. *green ones are for the volunteers only. so in th end, i traded my shirt with hers. ohmy! i was so happy.
but on the Friday KIKI was not around. thx to that no goood A____Z__. belo nyer anak!
da knape ngn kau? tk bace mail pe. asl bole jekk.
k dah nisa tkmo marah. teeHeee.
so after completing both days nisa recruited her Lapricons and made them do the Sacred Lapricon Pledge. it reali happen tau.

Rushed to ToaPayoh after that. gotta go watch the nations cup and i was late!! oledi missed 2 games and soo not gg to miz the last one. so guess wat happened?
me and NANA took a cab frm Marina Barrage. 15 mins later or so we r just going to enter the highway. the driver was a very old uncle. and trust me he drove so slow i can swear i saw the snail move faster than us. before we entered the highway, there was a massive jam and me and NANA quickly asked her to drop us at suntec instead. the meter was oledi showing 16bux plus2 and i we are still at marina area. imagine if we stay in the cab til ToaPayoh. *i tink i ll owe the cab company alot of kaching2*
so we took the train and alighted at ToaPayoh. NANA showed me the way to the roadside where i can get a cab. then she went off to her night class.
so get this, i koled kuz and hawa earlier asking if the sports hall was near the mrt. they sed tt i had to take a bus. tts wen i decided to take a cab. i was at one side of the road, and on the other side there was sooo many cab. so i crossed to the other side. wen i was on the other side, the side that i was once at flooded with cabs and the side that i was on now have non. so i crossed back again. this cycle continued for awhile til i finally gt a cab. and when i gt in the cab,

me: Aunty, toapayoh sports hall please.
Aunty: sports hall ah? sports hall there oni.*points across the road*
me: huh??!! there oni??? alamakk.
Aunty: yalah. u lost ah?
me: huh? *nt intending to waste time animore* ah yes2. k aunty just go.

*smack my forehead* i paid three bux in the end. but it was worth it. watched the game wit kuz and Hawa. it was the last game. and it was SGP vs TANZANIA.
SGP was leading at first. But TANZANIA caught up and won the match. good play.
went bc to kuz's place after that. sent HAWA to clementi mrt first then went bc. once reached her plc, we talked and all theni dozed off.

SATURDAY & SUNDAY

Reported to Irsyad at 8am on Sat. organised a netball camp for the kids. camp committee had a meeting at 8 and we started registration at 9.30. briefing then it was off to Toa Payoh for the Nations Cup Finale. it was a great game. the kids had a good time and experience and tehy get to meet the players. 6 nations were there. and the were CANADA, NORTHERN IRELAND, SCOTLAND, SINGAPORE, MALAYSIA & TANZANIA. i love the C playing for NORTHERN IRELANDS. idolize her mann. so after the Nations cup, we went bc to skul and solat asar. after asar we had some team building games and then maghrib and isya'. video watching was done after that then it was lights out.
Sunday was done with hardcore training all the way. arnd 3 there was a mini friendly with ARABIAH and IRSYAD won by 1 point. 30-29.
GOOD JOB GERLS. continue to improve and push urselves.
went to meet kk fid at hf after tt. was walking like org br kne sunat. EVRYWHER HURTS.
once bc at kuz's houx i washed up, ate then went to bed early.

so now im in skul. and UT is going to start soon. have this craving fr fries again. shaker fries. oooohh. *drooolll*

PEACE

mmMmhmmm...NODS

2009-12-07T23:23:00.002+08:00

UPDATED!!

2009-12-04T14:39:00.004+08:00

OREO ROCKS MY WORLD!!

*note that only my oreo has a rainbow in it*

k im in sch now and its a Friday.
COGNITIVE IS SOOO STRESS RELIEVING.
have coaching aft this and AFY training tooh. may b having frenly oso.
haha. HEE CNT WAITT.
theres alot of work to do. Netball camp is around the corner and alot to settle la. haiyoo.
now im reminded why i only do this once a year. haha
but nevertheless i look forward to it.

Had meeting with Mdm Yanis and committee yesterday.
those that turn up are just SHZ, AIN, SYIFA & AISHA.
discussion was fun and fruitful.
then later went home.
oh and i wan to thk SHZ personaly coz u reminded me to do wat im supposed to do.
IN THE NETBALL MEETING MINUTES THAT YOU SEND TO ALL COMMITEE MEMBERS.
THANX EH SHZ. hahahahha.

THESE ARE MY KIDS AND IM PROUD OF EVRY SINGLE ONE OF THEM=]

PEACE

ATTENTION!!

2009-12-02T01:32:00.001+08:00

LOTS OF LURVEE,
-Hunneystarrr=]

RANDOMITY

2009-12-02T01:22:00.003+08:00

"You asked me if I Love You.
I choked on my reply.
I'd Rather hurt you honestly, than mislead you with a LIE"

MARAHH NIHH!!

2009-11-26T12:54:00.005+08:00

mangkok piring sendok laaa org2 nihh. kenapalahh asek kne sama group ngn org2 nih. lau bkn satu, satu. swayy sei my team. shaamz and me da ddk one side and just type2 pat lappy mengumpat and lpskn geram psl drg. wlaooo. tp tkp. nisa is coool. nisa is strng. nisa will blaja sndr lau drg nk step pandai and nisa will get A and ktawe kn dorng in their face. wakakakkaa.

so anw, nana is not around and it just feels wrng. ahhaha. mom sent me to skul tday. meeting iffie ltr aft skul fr a talk. then later gg to granny's place as it is Hari Raya Eve. MBEEEKK!!
cian my bestfrennns kne sembelihh. bt its lillahita'alah so i redha.

dunno wat else to blog abt nw. coz i akteli nk lepaskn geram jekk. hahaha.
tday seems to b v sloww. and shitty. and sloww. n shittyy...
ah k u ol get my point.

oh oh! i will talk about yesterday,
we had ALC yesterday. ALC = Adventure Learning programme. *i dunno wats the 'C' for..XD*
so basically we did abseiling=]
'we' here is referring to my class and i. W16M.
but not al turned up ahh. oni the malays. hahaha. not being racist here k.
bt it was fun. i wanted to rock climb but din get it so nvm laaa. theres olwaes next tym.
haha. my fear of heights came bc awhile when i was at the top of the structure. but it went away pretty fast thx to all my classmates. i had loads of fun. thx guys=]
so went for makan aft tt. we went to banquet. i ate like lopis oni and drank Qoo. sedap kauu!
then wen all made their way home, i went to chill @lib. bt tiba saja at lib 4th floor my mom texted saying she ll reach in 2 mins time. wahh thx ehh. buat pnat jek naek. haha.
so yeaaa.

then we went home. wen i reach home, i did my rj then slept like a log. dead log. dead CUTE log. hahahaha!! so yeaaa.

still got the camp issue to settle now. alot of thgs to do and i have STM. my 'Memory' is overseas and imma mess. A BIG CUTE MESS. hahahaha!!
I MIZ YOU AAINAA!!!! and im only gona shout this out loud once k. EHEMM.

CHOCOLATE CRAVING!! nk chocolateee!! hahahah. but choco make me fat ryt? nonono. this claim is falsifiable to me. teeeheee. shushhh!!*shush-ing my conscience* teeeheeeee.
k imma stop being soo random n shut up nw. play mario oso gerek.
ok bbye. hehh.

PEACE

HOLAAA

2009-11-24T20:28:00.004+08:00

its a tuesday 2day and well its not the happiest day of my life. setiap kali samer team ngn org2 nih confirm tk blaja pape. F*** pe. korng pk korng sorng jek pe nk pandai. bei kire aku ni tknk pass ah? tknk blaja ah? hrp2 tuka team sak. wa tkle angkt lagi oowhhh.

k moving on people!!
ryt now we are slcking at skul. wen i mentioned 'we' i meant me, iffie n nana.
hahaha. kiki wasnt feeling well i guess coz she went home early tday.
blasting music in nana's class now. they wearing formal clothes as its entrepreneurship module for them so they have to dress up. iffie crazy as olwaes but smhw she alot more CRAZY tday. hahaha.
sugar rush much? nana oso samer ahhh. she and her spastic-ness. so gona miss her on thurs.
she going to balek kampong for hari raya with her family. so im not gona see her till next mon. wahh soo lonnngg ahhhh. *sob! CRY TILL FLOOD!!*

so anw, yesterday my kids had netball friendly with Arabiah. to cut it short, they did better then i expected. although more training is needed and their slacks need a lil scrubbing, im proud of them aniwae. GOOD JOB GERLS. KEEP IT UP.

*Time to buck up and show me what you are capable of gerls. are you champions? or just posers? rise to the challenge.*

staring at the 2 people now. funny how they can light up ur life even by not doing anythg. one i staring into her lappy and biting her nails with the stoning face.
another is olwaes with her spastic face and lip singing to every song she hears.
perfect yet incomplete. wish you were here babe. miz ya.

SHAKER FRIES ARE BACK PEOPLE!!!
and im sooo gona have it laterr!! YUMMEEHHH
friday is a holidaeee and im sooo looking 4ward to the KAACHINGG2!!
sori ahh, dun wana b $minded but me student ya knw. and me need $ badly this month mann.
and as u can see my posts tday are sooo random. im just simply typing down anythg tt comes to mind. theres alot more random thgs tt i would like to say but i tink i d save it and wun bore you. haha. till next time...

PEACE

short post

2009-11-23T14:14:00.004+08:00

HOLAAA PEOPLEEE

haizz sooo many thgs to doo soooo lil timee. wah piang ooooOooo...
mid week of dec damn bz siaa. PUSING KAPLAA. haiyoyoyooo.
i ll be having YOG friendship camp on the 10th & 11th of dec. then 11th at nite will be going for Nations cup. 12 & 13th of dec will be Netball camp. so that ll = 1 week not at home!!
NOOOOO!!!! *traumatic face* imma miz my bed. my rabbits. my aircon. my everythggg. *sob*
this wed ther will b ALC. soo loOking 4ward to tt. i wana climb the wall like spider man!! heee

This thursday is Hari raya haji eve mann. and friday gt no skul. fuhh! like finally. i need a break mann.
will update more at home. got to go woody crt nw.
my kids having frenlies against arabiah. lets see if they have earned themselves a win shall we. i know they can.

PEACE

FROM THE HEART

2009-11-11T21:51:00.003+08:00

FRIENDS

funny how they mean the world to you.
friends can be found anywhere. but only true friend stick by ur side thru thick n thin.
true frens are there those that stick arnd when you smile or cry.
they make you feel good and just be yourself.
they advice you and make you feel as though you dun need anyone else.
sadly, they are very hard to find.

in life, misunderstandings and hurt happens.
even between the best of frens, arguments happen.
and no matter what we do to try to make it right, it just ends up in a mess.
and we just feel as though we lost it. we lost tt beautiful thg we had.
well, i am not gona let tt happen.

Dear you, i admit i was hurt by what u sed.
but im in the wrng too as i cnt xpect u to understnd as u dun knw abt it.
i looked long and hard for a great fren like u n nana n kiki.
and im not gona gv u up just like tt now.
im sory if i offend you in any way. sorry if what i sed twards u isnt true.
bt tts just wat i felt. tts ol.
bt one thg tt i knw i cud nt chnge is tt i love you gerls too much to let u go.
u mite assume tt i dun wan u to b arnd.
sometimes u piss me off. sometimes i piss u off. sometimes we argue.
but hey, sisters fight ryt? all the good times we had.
isit worth letting this erase all that? No.

so i hope you 4gv me. and we can be just like before.
beat me up if tt makes u happy, as long as we ll talk and laugh and burp like nobody's business.
tts if you sudi la.
im tired of being hurt and alone.
so wad do u sae dear friend?
your call.

PEACE

happy happy birthdayyy...to youuuu...

2009-11-05T15:39:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYAZWAN!!

May Allah bless you with health and wealth thruout another great year babe.
i may not know you as well as the others, but i surely do appreciate your presence.
thank you for all tt u have done fr me and all the chiong-ing in class.
have a great day dear fren=]

PEACE

COOL SHITT

2009-11-04T18:37:00.004+08:00

PEACE

STORY TIME!!

2009-11-04T18:20:00.003+08:00

im in school now and i have a great story to tell!! so listen up...

ONCE UPON A TIME...
in a land far far away. there was a fine young lady named NANA. she was chilling in school with her friends on a cold wednesday afternoon. it was sooo cold..that she started to have cold feet.
being known for her quick thinking skills and her instincts to survive in this cruel world, she took action. she brought her friend with her to cure this unbearable state and went to a place sooo great. called...'THE LOO'
at 'THE LOO', she quickly went to relieve herself and then met up with the great wide 'silver' one. she placed her cold feet INTO the mouth of the beast and it started to melt her feet. feeling good, she enjoyed the heat BRUSHING OFF the cries of her friend warning her of th unexpected visitor. all she said was...'kejap ehk iffie..kejap' XD
when she turned around, to her surprise there was a stranger looking at her with her feet in the great 'silver' one and with a wave of her hand. and a few magic werds. she made him 4get. *or did he...*
and the magic werds are....'YOU DIN SEE ANYTHGG'

THE END.

try it at home kids. it werks. not proven so far but i bet it werks.
MORAL OF THE STORY:
DO NOT PUT YOUR FEET IN A PUBLIC TOILET'S HAND DRYER.
ITS CALLED A HAND DRYER FOR A REASON.

PEACE

ITS MY ANGEL'S BIRTHDAY!! SCREAM PEOPLE!!!

2009-11-02T23:57:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAKHIRAH!!!!!

May Allah bless you with health and wealth thruout another great year dear.
you have been a great friend and you taught me so much in life.
Being a year older doesn't mean you rot like an old person,
but its another door opened for you to explore.
no matter whut u ll olwaes b young at heart ryt? haha
eventho u still cnt take ur licence yet or watch M18 muvies(wich i can)
wakakakakka!! it feels gud to be a year older ryt? a year older to freedom. hahaha!
k nisa crapping again. watever it is....

HAPPY 17th BDAE DARLINGG!!
RAWRRRR!!!!
LOVE YA BABE!!=]

PEACE

ps: since ur bdae is on a UT week, we ll celebrate soon yea. dun run awayy you!! still kena sabo kay. ahhahaa.*winkwink*

....

2009-10-27T21:05:00.001+08:00

PEACE

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!

2009-10-25T16:32:00.003+08:00

AFY was cncled last min on friday as only 4 people could make it on tt day. i was so down bt my darls helped to turn tt arnd. thk u dears. so after skul went to watch HAWA's polite match. floorball tt is. they won 3-0 against NgeeAnn Poly. but i felt that the coach was being very unfair towards the players. its olwaes the same people rotating. i glance at the opposing team and all of them got to play. bt HAWA's team, out of all only like 10 got to play. i just felt that she was being very unfair. she shud atleast give them a chance to play. wats the point of coming if ure just gona be seated at the sidelines ryt. well aniway, thot HAWA needed the cheering up so went to join marsling CSC for netball. i olwaes enjoyed playing wit HAWA. it was late and we played our butts off. it felt so guud. to finally play netball again. but it wud have been better with BODEX arnd. oh well, mayb this week wud b better. we ll see=]

went to granny's place on sat. left the houx at arnd 5-6? cnt rmmbr. then went strgt to granny's houx. chilled with kuz n kk dayah and just had alot of fun. ive olwaes looked 4ward to gg to granny's place. its wher i can just be myself and i knw everyone arnd me loves me just fr hu i am.
*Thank you lord for blessing me with a great family. AMEEN*

well im at home nw. and its a Sunday. today is 25th of October and its my dad's birthday. i cnt rmmbr wat age he is bt i knw he is more then 45. haha. old huh. i dunno, i just dun wan him to get old u knw. one day he wun b arnd and it ll just wun feel right. hes like my bestfren. (a very OLD bestfren) XD and like every bestfren he listens and makes u feel better everytime. he advices me and his knowledge is olwaes passed on to me like its free. i am v lucky to have a dad like him. this might not be much but if u are reading this ayah,
i wana wish you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
you are chearished evry single day and i hope you have a great day=]
may ALLAH bless you with health and wealth thruout another great year and i am sry if ive sinned in any way. I LOVE YOU=]

PEACE

ONCE UPON A TIME...

2009-10-22T13:58:00.005+08:00

Went home with lovelies the other day. we all laughed and joked and there were lameness all around. we sang 'somewhere over the rainbow' out loud like drunks and made the whole field like E37A. LOL. i was too lazy to wait for all the pictures to upload so i made them to a collage. *clever kn? i knw* haha. but this is not all of them la. only some.

so as we walked to cwp, i realize that Singapore is having too many foreigners already. everywhere i turn there are foreign people walking around. but there are 4 that caught my attention. well that is because they look almost alike! notice the eyebrows, mustache and nose. *looks down* XD i think they are related ahh. that explains alot i guess.

after some of them went home, it was left with me, aainaa, iftirah, zee and kiki. we went to cold storage as aainaa needed to find holloween costumes for her work theme. i got a shock of my life when i saw who was promoting the olive oil and colgate! i took some pictures but u guys can see it here. i was shocked. how can they put that gal as a promoter of colgate?? her teeth isn't white at all. sheeshh. then there was her frens. omg. i just feel that they shudnt walk arnd unsupervised u knw.

poor aainaa. got the shock of her life. not only her teeth was bad, her promoting skills are definitely down the drain! she akteli forced aainaa to buy the colgate. sheeshh. heres the picture im going to insert together with complain letter im going to send to her boss. aainaa got so scared she looked just like her! facial fees must be paid! haiyooo..thank god it wasnt permanent. pheww!

after the tiresome and weird afternoon. we each spend time with our soulmates and suprisingly, nana's soulmate was abit different compared to ours. well different people has different preference ryt? teehee.
we all went home after that. had sweet lil dreams. THE END. XD

PEACE

SINGS

2009-10-21T10:10:00.004+08:00

It never crossed my mind at all.
It's what I tell myself.
What we had has come and gone.
You're better off with someone else.
It's for the best, I know it is.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside,
And I turn around.
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you....

Memories, supposed to fade.
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go.
Didn't think it'd be this hard.
Should be strong, movin' on.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside.
And I turn around,
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Maybe I regret everything I said,
No way to take it all back
Now I'm on my own..
How I let you go, I'll never understand.
I'll never understand

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
And I really don't know what to do.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you

PEACE

SHOUT!!!

2009-10-19T14:02:00.005+08:00

alamak sry idayu, kk mona & kk noi. me no hap pic of us altgt. wen we meet take many2 pic yea? hee

AFY NETBALL THIS FRIDAY!! YAYYNESS!!
eventho its not confirmed yet but i am soo pumped and excited!!
BODEX COMING BACK TGT AGAINN. HEE
GOD i miss them like hell.
i miss netball with my team.
playing with them is the greatest. the chemistry, the bond. the laughs.
nothing cn replace it.

ME
HAWA
KK FID
KK MONA
KK NOI
HUDA
AYESHAA
IDAYU
NAZ
FINAA
HANY
CKIN
SYAYSYA

AFY BODEX ARE BACK PEOPLE!! WATCH OUT. WE LL GET BETTER AND KICK UR BUTTS OL OVER AGAIN! WOOOOHOOOO!!!!!!

PEACE

WOOOHOOO!!

2009-10-18T17:26:00.004+08:00

171009.
the day the whole family on my mom side come over! YAY!!
All of my aunts and uncles n kuzzies came. dun 4gt granny..she was the boss. LOL
kuz came in wit us on friday. her fam and haikal's fam.
but he buey us laa. nvr come. haiyaa.
so anw, reached home close to midnight. had fun toking and stuff and dozed off eventually.
LOL.
next day kkDAYAH came. we all gt ready fr the open houx.
then there was a conflict awhile bt eventho some sparks flew fr awhile there, eventually they made up. hey, sisters fight ryt?=]
so to summarise everythg...basically we talked, slacked, ate & shopped til we dropped!
kuz din get to shop as she had to go home on sat. haishhh.
its ok kuz, wen u come again we ll shop till all of us drop yea? OK!!
ive olwaes loved it wen they come over.
it was like a getaway frm ol the tinkin and skulwork and stuffs.
we all just basically had alot of fun and got away from stresses in life.
and i love tt=]

*okae! rewinding to friday...*

friday...it was the last coaching before my gerls had exams.
so sian..but i was happy with the attendance. it wasnt full, yes. but it was more then usual.
so im just happy. they did well. some improved some slacked.
well tt happens ryt? i need to improve on my coaching skills.
but hw...
slacked wit hawa jap aft tt. hawa syg oiii...SMILE yea? =)

anw,
ALL THE BEST FOR UR EXAMS GIRLS.
YOU GERLS CN ACE EM EASY=]

and lastly..a final shout out to a dear teacher and friend.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CKG RAHIMAH!! =))

PEACE

SNAPSNAP XD

2009-10-18T16:47:00.005+08:00

Pictures for now yea? hee

PEACE

BOO!!

2009-10-12T22:28:00.004+08:00

I was blogging in skul just now but we had to leave so i saved it in a Microsoft werd doc and continued to write at home. haha. info tk perlu kn? i knw. LOL
so anw, i was at E36E just now. NANA's class. one lvl up are wher all the memories are held. All the sweet unforgettable memories.
but hey, i gt to move on. i gt to start smwher ryt?
the new class isnt tt bad now. told u i need time=] i wana thk a fren of mine tooh.
he made my new class felt like home. so thk u Syazwan=]

was suppose to teman NANA go to United Square awhile but plan changed in the end.
usually wen i plan smthg, it olwaes end up differently in the end. hahaha.
KIKI's dad fetched her just now. hais. miss her loads.
had chemistry just now. IT WAS A DRAG MANNN.
but i managed to get thru it so YAY ME!!! hahaha

had alot of fun on saturday.
it was the day tt my darlings came. we had loads of fun swimming, laughing & mainly spending time with each other. took alot of piccs and alot of memories tooh.
I LOVE YOU GUYS DAMN MUCH KAY?? hee

Life is never fair aint it. It never goes hw we want it tooh. well too bad huh. hahaha. life is just too hard to understand. sometimes i feel lik givng up on evrythg. smhw i feel like evrythg is pointless nw. but tinking of my family, my friends and my responsibilities towards them and evryone arnd me. i hold on n move 4ward. to infinity and beyond.

*oh lord, please give me the strength to go thru life as it is. AMEEN*

PEACE

2009-10-08T21:32:00.004+08:00

I MISS E37AWESOME!!

PEACE

=]

2009-10-06T21:42:00.003+08:00

S.M.I.L.E

PEACE

sing wimme

2009-10-06T15:15:00.002+08:00

There used to be a graying tower alone on the sea.
You became the light on the dark side of me.
Love remained a drug that's the high and not the pill.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and
The light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh,
The more I get of you,
The stranger it feels, yeah.
And now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the gray.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain,
My power, my pleasure, my pain, baby
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny.
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby?
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the gray,
I've been kissed by a rose on the gray,
I've been kissed by a rose
I've been kissed by a rose on the gray,
...And if I should fall along the way
I've been kissed by a rose
...been kissed by a rose on the gray.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain
My power, my pleasure, my pain.
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny, yeah
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the gray.
Yes I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
And now that your rose is in bloom
A light hits the gloom on the gray
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the gray.

PONTENGG DAYY.

2009-10-06T14:07:00.005+08:00

Didnt go to skul today. and its the 2nd day of the ferst week.
reason used: TIRED. mom came home late yesterday and the whole family din wana budge frm their beds.
my own reason: well...i cnt reali move on yet. my class is not E37A and i have to deal with it. bt its diff ya knw. im so not me. and the class is too diff. anw, i need time to myself and gv time-out to some frm me. school is not looked 4warded to animore. well i shud gv it time i guess. only time will tell.

so anw, gg to the market wimma my mom in awhile. gotta stock up fr tiz Saturday's event.
Sweeties are coming over=]
tts the oni thg i look 4ward to ryt nw. reali hope nana cn make it tho.
din wana go market akteli, tk pernah suke. asked my sister to go bt then she continued to sleep.
kurang hasamnyer budakk. naseb baek u adk i tau. lau tk da lamer i campak luar tingkap. LOL
oh i enjoyed yesterday tooh. thk u ol fr making it a memorable day=]

so many thgs happening. so little time.
the world wun stop spinning. the time will not turn back.
yes 'sorry' wun change anythg. it wun enforce the law. it wun stop war. it wun change fact.
but its an expression to show hw u feel or hw soory u are or somethg. *cnt reali put it in werds*
its funny hw 'sorry's are simple yet so complicated. the hardest 5 letter werd fr some, yet sometimes, its funny tt some sae them too often. well watever it is, i hope u r ok. u r the closest to me compared to the rest. n i hope u knw tt. coz tts wat i feel atleast. u knw we cn tok abt anythg ryt? u tc dear fren. and if u need me, u knw hw to reach me=]

PEACE

HONEYYY!! IM HOMEE=]

2009-10-04T00:13:00.008+08:00

Im back in my bed noww. slept like hell and evrywher i might add.
was damn tired sei. guess frm the improper sleep frm the hosp.
but apart frm tt...
Daddy's home!! YAY!!!
WELCOME HOME AYAH=]

6 days of testing and x-rays and scopes and needles and drips.
and he alwaes come bc and face the family with a smile.
reminds me of my late granddad.
i cnt go thru all tt if it were me. haha
I HATE NEEDLES.
alot of funny thgs happened at the hosp. alot of new frens.
alot of eye opening experiences and tales.

so anw, went jalan rayer wit my darlings the other day.
had alot of fun. did some bodek-ing and it WORKED!!
ALHAMDULILLAHH.
*so i ll see u on the 10th then. XD*
we went to nana's houx ferst, then kiki, then iffie. then zee, followed by his kuz and lastly my dad. ahhaha.
all were kecoh n stuff. and i loved the day.
thank you deariez fr making it a wonderful event=]

overslept this morning coz i slept over at kuz's houx. woke up at 10 as i was awaken by my sis and she sed tt dad is being discharged.
i literally sat up n sed OMG! its 10am! im supposed to b at the hosp at 8. arghhh.
gt ready then went off to hosp.
thanks kuz fr the place to stay n the delicious ikan bakar. u knw me v well. haha
reached home at arnd 3? 2? cnt rrmbr. then slept n slept like ive nvr slept before.
n im stil v sleepy nw so im gg off to bed.
SWITDREAMS AWESOME PEOPLE.

PEACE

S.O.S

2009-10-02T01:07:00.005+08:00

wats happening to me.
im losing stuff.
starting old habits.
feeling what im not suppose to feel.
im hurting all over again.
keep it in nisa.
don't lose your cool.
grab a hold of urself.
u have lasted this long. don't break now.
WAKE UP. find urself. WAKE UP

PEACE

WHAT A DAYY!!

2009-09-29T00:04:00.003+08:00

The day was going fine till i gt news frm my mom to hurry it up.
i didnt knw tt sometink happened so wen i gt ther, i gt the shock of my life wen i found out tt my dad fainted in Irsyad.
My mom n me rushed to Irsyad and sent him to hosp.
once ther he was placed under observation fr 2hrs so while waiting i went to queensway to survey the 'kids' jerseys. *i had to get my mind off thgs*
wen i gt bc, dad had to be warded. so i went in to see him, woried sick fr his condition.
once in, his ferst statement turned my frown bc to a smile.

ayah: nisa..nisa..
me: yea?
ayah: bilangkn ibu, kalau ayah kene warded, ayah nak ward yang ad tv.
me: *laugh my arse off* mcm2 ahh ayah nihh

so nw here i am updating abt it.
he is warded now. im gona accompany him 2moro at the hosp so need to pack some clothes.
watever it is..

GET WELL SOON AYAH

AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

2009-09-25T00:06:00.005+08:00

I FEEL LIKE A DRUG ADDICT W/O HER DRUG.
I am suffering.
My drug is no where to be found.
I WANT NETBALL!!! I MIZ MY BODEX=(
Netball isnt the same witout them. the chemistry is fading away.
the team is falling apart. don't let it fade away darls. come back.
I NEED MY WEEKLY DOSAGE OF MY DRUG.
i HAVE to do somethg abt it. and FAST.

now theres this other issue abt my hair.
I MIZ MY SHORT HAIR!!
i want it back. i don't feel like me at all witout my short hair.
please oh please lemme cut my hair...
pleaseeee....
*gives you puppy face*

now tt my emotional needs are expressed.
i cn tink stght nw. ahahha.
going for coaching tomoro. meeting AAINAA @9am then will make way to RP ferst then Queensway shopping ctr.
RP coz AAINAA needs to go get her new lappy and Queensway coz i need to survey for my kids their jerseys and look for a whistle. AAINAA is looking for a volleyball tooh.
after that, imma send her to work then i ll make my way to irsyad.
meeting hawa at braddel mrt and coaching will end at approximately 6.30pm.
so tts 2moros plan. will update more some other time yea? okbest.

PEACE

A little somethg i wana share=]

2009-09-24T23:07:00.001+08:00

LOL

BANGS HEAD ON WALL

2009-09-20T04:40:00.004+08:00

GREAT! *gives sarcastic face*
another night without sleep.
tick..tock...tick..tock..
am i abnormal or somethg?
sleep nisaaa.....sleep......
*psyco self*

SYAWAL MUBARAK!!

2009-09-20T02:15:00.004+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA PEOPLEE!!

ok. this habit has got to stop. i have to start sleeping more.
the questn is...how? HAHA.
im bored now. Excited at the same time.
y? coz i'm gona get my pay!! *winkwink*LOL
k i sound v materialistic ryt? so lemme explain...EHEMEHEM!!*clear throat*
i NEED money badly this year.
need to start pampering myself. and i need to restore the lost money in my bank.
wakakakka.
so ther u go. short n sweet aint it? lols

well, went to granny's place yesterday. (wich is on a sat k)
we go ther every saturdays. its when all the family from my mom's side gather and just spend time together. i olwaes look 4ward to it=)
well, yesterday we gathered for kenduri. it was HARI RAYA EVE ryt?
yeaa. so met kuz n ol. miss her damn much.
shes v busy nwdaes. v hard to ask her out since she start working.
teacher-in-training la kn. so cnt blame her. work sux mann.
but i hope shes doing good. get well soon yea kuz=)

so went home then finished up the unfinished chores b4 RAYA.
and then...here i am now.
in front of my lappy and cnt sleep.

told kuz abt somethgs tt she shud knw.
and as expected, she gt pissed. yes. hu wudnt ryt? even i am pissed.
F***ER IS MESSING WITH THE WRONG FAMILY.
so many people you hurt. sighh.

*IF THERE IS AN AWARD FOR THE BEST ACTRESS IN THE WHOLE WORLD, YOU WOULD WIN IT HANDS DOWN.
CONGRATULATIONS BABE.
BUT LEMME TELL YOU SOMETHG.
NO MATTER WAT YOU SAY, YOU AINT FOOLING ME NOMORE.
MY MIND IS MADE UP. MY HEART IS CLOSED.
YOU ARE A NUISANCE IN MY LIFE.
SOMEONE HU CAUSED SO MANY HURT.
SO MANY LIES.
NOMORE CHANCES. NOMORE THOTS OF YOU.
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, I REGRET KNOWING SMONE.
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, THESE THREE WORDS ARE SAID...
I HATE YOU.
AND I MEAN EVERY WORD OF IT.*

PEACE

I WANTTT!!

2009-09-19T00:48:00.007+08:00

WISH LIST FOR THIS MONTH... (THE I-WANTTTS-SOOO-BADDLYY!!!!......)

Nike windbreaker! (black & red)
ADIDAS sleeveless
XBOX games. (Godfather2. Ultimate Alliance2, Tomb Raider, Marval Vs Capcom & Guitar Hero5)
Box compartment. (TREASURE BOX K. DAMN CUTEE)
Pamper myself with shoppinggg!!

190909

whut i did on this date? well went to RP with NANA n KIKI.
they had to repair their lappys. then after went to United Squre for some shopping.
NANA was looking fr some stuff n we tagged along. hee.
met IFFIE aft tt and went to Velocity fr some shoe shopping.
Tiara joined us there=]
HEELS. *some thgs i ll never wear in this world*
after the intense shoe shopping, we moved on to IKEA.
we went to the one @Queenstown coz it was nearer to my mom's workplace.
thanks darlings.
i have to admit, i NEVER thot tt IKEA would be as much fun as it was today.
i guess evrywher with u gerls makes even the worsts of places somethg beautiful.

*Thank you LORD fr blessing me with these Great individuals.
AMEEN*

PEACE

SCREAMM

2009-09-16T23:38:00.005+08:00

dear you,

i knw you are never gona read this. bt i need to clear my head. why must it be this way? you n me. we had so many memories tgt. so many good times. unfortunately, much more bad times too. bt it didnt have to end up this way. all i ask is for you to be a like a sister to me. bt no.
u hurt me so much. ur making me so confused. im losing my mind. have you been lying abt me? abt my family? please tell me the truth. your mind games are torturing me. wat did you tell ur fren abt me? abt my kuz? wat? my kuz is the most trustworthy person in the whole world. and your fren sed...'sometimes we cnt trust someone fully w/o hearing the other prsn's story. eventho tt prsn is ur own flesh n blood.' wat r u trying to sae?? tt my kuz lied to me?? not likely. she has been taking care of me since b4 u even became my fren. hw could you sae such thgs. i would choose her over you anyday.

y must you hurt so many ppl? y? evryone tt i made frens with. you chase them away. you made me ur one n only. am i not allowed to have frens? y must i keep crying fr u? y must i olwaes be the one who tink n take care of your feelings. your well being. y? i did not 4get the times wen u took care of me wen i was sick n ol. i rmmbred. bt the hurt i feel is more then the good times. i am so confused. so upset. so hurt. am i not allowed to love? to have someone to call my own? y must u confine me in this prison of urs. even wen u are far away. y are you still torturing me in my head? in my heart? y?? y are these tears of pain still linger in my sleep? in my thots.
i wana break free. i cnt lie to you. i miz u. all these while. i care fr u. n i still do. bt i just cnt figure out y u cnt just b a sister to me. y must u make it complicated? y must u take away evrythg frm me? y must u hurt all those arnd me? isit not enuf u hold me as ur prisoner fr so long? i am tired. tired of tinking. tired of crying. tired of being confused. u play with my trust. evrythg contradicts. wat u sae contradicts to wat i saw. i was so stressed to a pt tt i questn myself. am i crazy? u made me this way. yes. you.

i left you. for so many reasons u dun knw. fr so many reasons u wun understand. its the best way. its the only way i could protect u. and those tt i love. the only way i can make you realise tt i am not the only one. there are others out ther. once again, i play the role as the bad person. to ur eyes im olwaes the bad one ryt? i did it. coz i care. i am merely human afterall. hate me all u want. lie abt me. abt my family. bt get this. not once i lied abt u. not once i mistreat ur family. not once i made them look bad. not once i hurt u intentionally. not once i played with ur head or made u my slave. not once. i olwaes gave in to u. watever tt i want, tt i love. i put them away just to make u happy. bt no more of tt. this is me. the me u thot u knew wasnt me. it was the nisa u wanted me to be. bt nomore pretending. this is me. if u dun like it. then u lost me. do not xpect me to come bc to you. coz it ll only be the same thg again. if u reali do care, then this time YOU come to me. im tired of being ur dog. u made me this way. u took evrythg away frm me. you.

*dek. im so sorry. thers so much to explain to u. bt so little time. i ll find time fr u k? n i ll tell u evrythg.

PEACE

BLOWS COBWEBS OFF BLOGG...

2009-09-13T06:11:00.006+08:00

Its 7plus in the mawning and im still wide awake.
tsktsk.

"not good fr u nisa. must sleep.
god make the night time fr people to rest..
bla...bla..."

i shall nt mention hu sed tt horr.
it is olwaes the same line when i sleep late or dun sleep at all.
no matter hw long or brief the syarahan is.
this sentence will alwaes b in it.

so anw, i cnt sleep.
so thot of blogging abt what happened on Friday.
so wat did hapen on Friday u may ask?
well, now im gona tel u so read up k?
EHEM....EHEM..*clear throat*

Friday's Main Event was BILLY'S BDAE CHALET!!
bt it oni starts later at 2-3pm and i was in sgp @8am.
*bang head on wall*
so i overslept in the car and my dad din wake me up.
*ferst time dgr org overslept dlm krete kn??*
haha. so them made our way to RP.

went to RP as i wana go fr a change of course.
i couldnt go thru PHARMACEUTICAL SCIENCE.
i foresee tt i will fail. and i didnt want to repeat my module so yeaa.
y choose the course in the ferst plc u may ask?
well coz of some personal reasons.
n bla bla..

k so bc to the day's events. muahhaha.
went to NANA's houx aft tt. dad sent me to her plc as i was too lazy to take public transport.
hahaa
chilled at her place till arnd 2? cnt rmmbr.
watched her cleaned her houx fr raya.
(more like ROOM than HOUX la)
hahaha. helped abit tooh. then went out to go take her baju tempahan.
(i dunno hw to sae it in english) wakakaka
n do some other chores then went to buy billy's gift.=]
since he was gg 19 this year. we bought him 19 random stuff and put it in a bdae box.
wahahhaahha.
and it literally has DAMN RANDOM stuff inside.
from toilet bowl wash to briefs to even female shavers. wahahha.
so met up wit IFFIE & KIKI at Yishun. bought some food at OCK as it was 6 plus oledi.
so we took a bus frm Ysh to tampines. and frm tampines another bus to DOWNTOWN EAST.
*tts wher the chalet is held*
reached dwntwn east at arnd 7plus? im bad @rmmbring these details. LOL
bt i knw it was dark. ahha
so then saw a few familiar faces n few more new faces.
n i thot it wud be alot more ppl. haishh.
bt nevertheless, i enjoyed my day at the chalet. we ate, chilled, made new frens and played till we gt all wet!
so conclusion is...

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY BILLY!!=]

PEACE

*when i look at you. i feel the pain you have to go thru. i feel the anger boiling up in me. y u? of all ppl. y must it be u? i ll kill him fr doing this to u. i dun blame u. i am just damn furious at the one responsible. y him? of ol ppl. i thot hes different. bt i guess im wrng.
he is just like tt bloody son of a *****.
preying on innocent blood.
just by looking at you. my mind & heart wonders so far.
you are not alone my dear.. i understand how you feel.
the stuff tt are olwaes up and about in ur mind.
the WHYS & WHATS.
HOWS & WHAT IFS.
PAST.PRESENT.FUTURE
it will olwaes be ther. tt conscience. will alwaes haunt you. just as it haunts me.
tears welling up. just by looking at you.
all the ANGER. and HURT. and FRUSTRATIONS
running in my head and bleeding in my heart.
save me. stop the bleed.
If Only....*

As said by Nisa...EHEM!!

2009-09-01T04:40:00.004+08:00

PEACE

RAUZIE'S DAY OUT!!

2009-08-30T12:00:00.009+08:00

FRIDAY..

Main reason for coming in to sgp on friday was cause of coaching.
but there was a last min change of plans. so i had to improvise.

met FAKHIRAH at 8.45 at admiralty then walked to AAINAA's houx.
(initial time to meet was 8 btw)

....ring....ring....

me: hello?? ____ kau da agn blom??
hamba allah: ahh..blom....nanti ahh..kbye..
me: ah? nanti?? eh..ah k..bye.

LOL. so once at AAINAA's houx we chilled awhile and toked abt many thgs. random questns are being asked and truths are told. well, truth hurts ryt?

" y cnt u just be a man and tell me strght in my face? y must it come from someone eles? y must u keep this frm me? you cud have just tell me. honesty is all tt i asked frm u. sadly even tt i could not get frm u."

chilled at AAINAA's till around 12 plus+ where she later got redy. we later made our way to TTSH. (no, none of us had H1N1. -_-") we went to visit DIDI. he fainted in school the other day and FAKHIRAH had to give a statement to the doctor of what happened. otw there, i saw one thg tt made me laugh my arse off once again.

THE WORLD'S SHORTEST ESCALATOR!

hahaah. i din knw exsisted. (see how lazy singaporeans are??) LOL XD

k so once at TTSH, she got him a SUNflowers. so nice!!! haha. then later chilled at TTSH till around 3.15. during that time all we did was slacked and played the price is
right. (IF ONLY it was real ryt fakhirah? lol)

we left at 3.15 as AAINAA needed to go to werk. so we escorted her to werk. haha.
once at United Square, she changed and got to werk. me n FAKHIRAH went around to find stuff that we wished we had. lols. end up we bought new earpieces as we badly needed one. lols
and they were a great deal tooh.
it was buy one get one free. so we got the 3nity green colored earpiece and it was less then 10 bux fr each. WOW!! haha. k moving on...

so then we went to chill wit AAINAA awhile b4 gg off. and Rauzie had a tym of his life! he was being dressed up in so many outfits. he wanted to buy em al but i couldnt afford it at the mmt. so i told him i ll get him the stuff once i had money. lol.

we made our way home at around 5? 6? can't recall. FAKHIRAH alighted at admiralty and i did at woody. waited for mum wit my sis & bro at civic busstop and suddenly craved fr Swensens. XD. so tried my luck and bodek-ed my parents to buka at Swensens. after much bodek-ing...my efforts payed off!! haha. so tts the story so far. hahhaha.

SATURDAY...

my saturday was..well..spent at my granny's place. not many ppl there tiz week but as long as kuz is there im happy. lol. texted ANNIE and ZEEZEE as well and they filled my time tooh.

"thank you lord for blessing me with these wonderful people"
AMEEN

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