I remember you chasing me around at home when i was little. with a cane in your hand asking me to bathe. you would scream at me and tell me to do my homework, and eat. and wake me up in the morning. send me down to my transport to bring me to preschool. the estate was my playground. you calling me from the window when my cuzzins and me were playing at the playground from dawn to dusk. asking me to perform my prayers whenever i forget. and as i grow up, i moved out. we meet every saturdays only. even so..i loved going there every sat.

i remember you asking me if i am coming the week after. i remember u asking me to stay over at your house and keep you company. i remember you making the jelly just for me cause you know i only like yours. i remember you making conversation with me the few times i slept over at your house. i remember you sitting in the room with me the morning before i leave for school. your smile. the way you shower me with your love and care all these years. no matter the distance. no matter who or what am i. you loved me nevertheless.

i still cant believe you have left us once and for all. i am still in shock. why did you leave so early? why did you leave so suddenly? why did you leave without saying goodbye? you were smiling and laughing with us last saturday. you went out with our aunts and uncles last sun. i kissed your forehead and cheeks before i left. you sat with me and kkfid in the kitchen when we are eating and you were fine. what happened? why did you go so soon. im not ready to say goodbye just yet. i still want you in my life. i regret not saying 'I Love You' to you everytime we meet. i regret not showing you how much i appreciate you. i regret not hugging you so tight and not letting go when i should. why must you go so soon...

it was very unexpected of you to leave us like this. i understand its your time. and that HE loves you so much that he takes you away from us to go to a better place. but seeing you..lifeless on the bed. kissing you for the last time. staying by your side the whole time. i miss you. so much. i cnt believe your gone. i want it all to be a prank. seeing you going in the grave. covered up by the soil. saying my last goodbye. i just cant let it go. im stil in disbelief. i hope its not too late to say this. I LOVE YOU.

DEAR ALLAH,
Ampunknlah dose2 nenekku. luasknlah kuburnya.
ringanknlah seksa kuburnya.
sejukkn la keadaan didalam kuburnya dan akhirat nnt.
beriknlah nenekku kesenangan untuk menjwp soalan2 yg akn ditanya
oleh malaikat mungkar and nangkir nnt.

AMEEN