The Netballer
Have been On earth Since 30041991
And Lives On earth. wee~
Started my early education @ AMP.
then spent 11 years of my life at
MADRASAH AL-IRSYAD AL-ISLAMIAH.
currently at REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC.
Hopefully will be taking DEGREE in a year's
time INSYALLAH.
Me AmoRe’...
TOMATO=) and KUZZIE=]
the 2 bdk belos xD
Netbolalers! BODEX!
not 4getting my bed. lappy and baby hunney n jr!
CraZY over sports.
NETBALL FREAK. woooo~
an ANIMAL LOVER! animal abusers STAY AWAY!!
I live my own life.
LIVE IT. LOVE IT. DEAL WITH IT.
P&T is LOVED. PeaCe=]
I pen down everything & anything that comes to mind
I put language to actions happening before my eyes.
Ignorance is the best medicine if you are full of abhorrence.
Don't like what i wrote? Don't read lorrr. simple as that=].
Thursday, April 22, 2010
im losing evrythg i thot i id have frever. history repeating again. wat shud i do? run away? or fight? im tired of gg thru it again n again. is it me? is it nt me? y isit happening? wher did i go wrng? why?? someone gv me the ans. im tired. the sense of serenity aint aniwher near me. suicide sounds good. bt it aint the way. its gona get me to deeper shit. mayb im rite. i shud walk the earth alone. tt way i wun hurt anione aniwher. tt way they wud b happier. evrythg sux. my life sux. i suck.
its haunting me. evry breath i take. evry step i take. evry single beat of my heart. it wun leave me. FCUK U FR MAKING ME HU I AM NW. FCUK U FR MAKING MY LIFE INSECURE. FCUK U FR MAKING ME HAVE TO LIVE EVRYDAY IN GUILT AND FEAR. FCUK U.
u made me hu i am nw. u happy? bt u dun knw tt dun u. ur off wit ur perfect life. i wana thank you fr making me tiz way. thk u soo much. u gt all the credit to tiz.
DEAR LORD, if u hear me. tell me wat i do wrng? tell me y do i stay up crying in most nites. tell me y aint i at peace. y is evryone arnd me hurtin? y r u gving me gd frens when u knw imma hurt them? y do u bless me a gd family wen u knw imma hurt them n brg shame? y do u gv me such an easy life wit no financial probs n stuff wen u knw imma take advantage of it? y do u bless me healthy wen u know imma spoil myself? y do u gv me such a gd life knwing imma just do bad thgs repeatedly. whyy. tell me why. TELL ME WHY
how many times must i go thru tiz to redeem myself? is this a test? process of redemption? what?? u gv me good frens, then u take them away. u later gv me the best. nw u throw me a challenge. tell me what to do. im tired trying to figure out all my life. i affect evryone arnd me. those closest affected the most. broken frenshps. selfishness. hurt. if im meant to cause soo much pain then take me away. make their lives better. they dserve the best n i just aint it. i dun dserve my family. my friends. my life. all too perfect. take me away. make them happy.
SERENITY ONLY COMES WHEN DEATH CALLS MY NAME
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